We are into 2007 already. I actually dread it... cos I can already see that this is gonna be a trying year - at least for the 1st half of it. I have 3 more modules to clear for my masters (Module 3 starting tomorrow... AAARRRGGGHHH!!!), I have my fair share of travelling in-between my modules (my target this year increased by 80%), and I have not been in the best of health (the flu virus always catches up on me, sigh)
Sounds kinda discouraging for a new year, ain't it? But I guess (and I am on the road believing and claiming it) this is probably gonna be a year of stretching, testing of perseverance and character and in my relationship and dependency on God. As He has already said since June 06, that my time of testing and stretching is here... and in my opinion, this season is still not over. And He promised that He will take me to a new level of relationship with Him. I can only cling onto His promises (Praise song during service today is ringing in my head now: All of God's promises won't let go of me). He has also spoken to me during the WAM retreat over New Yr's day, about being courageous to step out and face all the challenges that will come along my way. Afterall, the righteous live by faith and He is not pleased if we shrink back. He encouraged me to press on and persevere on.
I am looking forward to a good holiday (which i dunno when), maybe in Bali or Melbourne (to find Alice), when I can just really unwind and take my time to think thru things and the going-ons in my life... This is a moment of escapism... how nice...
One thing I really hope and pray I will do and stand firm in, is not to be distracted along the way in my race. I cannot really afford to be de-railed, so God, I really need Your help in helping me to focus on You and on the outcome of things, and not be distracted by short-term excitements (quote from Ps Ben Lee, Sun Svc sermon, 7 Jan 07)
Lord, help me to run this race with joy, with purpose and with influence. I know You made me great so I can be a great influence for You - that others may see You in my life. It is a very heavy burden and task, but I want to be what You want me to be - I am at Your service, to do what pleases You and to do what extends Your Kingdom. It is easier said than done, cos life is not easy; it is difficult (quote from Isaac, WAMmer)
To all out there who struggles to be strong and to be uplifted, take heart, cos He is our Uplifter! (I am encouraging myself too)
HappY New YeaR!
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Unintentional-Sunburn-Saturday
It all started as a lil' "expectation" from my colleague Daniel to go support them in the inter-department soccer tournament today. I kinda know this cos' I was supposed to go support them last year, but didn't. Anyway, due to the proximity of my house to the sports complex, I have little excuse not to drop by.
I scrambled out of bed at 9am, when I wanted to sleep in some more, cos I tuckd in at 245a last night (Reasons: Ramond my brother & Hitch the show). Anyway, went there and was supposed to drop by and go. By the time I realized the time, I would be late for my dermatologist appointment. I called them, they said they couldn't wait for me, cos their appointments were packed. Alas, I went back and decided to stay for the tournament. Anyway, the stay lasted about 4.5hrs in total! And Thank God they won the overall champion! My support was not in vain, haha!
The Champions
(Disclaimer: Emma is really bad at computer and stuffs. I have no idea why the photo cannot be rotated, ARGH!)
Anyway, when I came home, I felt uncomfortable and realized that I'd been sunburnt! Imagine the devastation!!! I hate to be sunburnt, and usually if I really do, I will be prepared for it. Today, no sunblock, no nothing, and the sunburn just crept up to me like a slithering snake! And the best part was, I was in the shade for the big part of the time, how unfair!
So, now I have red hair, and red arms, how's that for colour-matching????
Things had been pretty rough recently: The tiredness from all the traveling, continuous work and not much rest, plus those multiple persistent personal struggles. But most of all, the physical tiredness spills over to the rest of me. I long for a break - just ONE day of doing nothing and chilling out at the beach on my own, spending good time talking to God and clearing out my mind and all the clutter. Afterall, it IS the year-end and it IS time for reflection and preparing for the new year.
GOSH, I wish I could hibernate somewhere... I will be in Kunming with my whole family including the babies over Christmas, and I have a feeling I will be tired after that. Man, when can I REST??? Oh Lord, make time for me pls. I need the break, even if it is just for ONE day!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
I scrambled out of bed at 9am, when I wanted to sleep in some more, cos I tuckd in at 245a last night (Reasons: Ramond my brother & Hitch the show). Anyway, went there and was supposed to drop by and go. By the time I realized the time, I would be late for my dermatologist appointment. I called them, they said they couldn't wait for me, cos their appointments were packed. Alas, I went back and decided to stay for the tournament. Anyway, the stay lasted about 4.5hrs in total! And Thank God they won the overall champion! My support was not in vain, haha!
The Champions
(Disclaimer: Emma is really bad at computer and stuffs. I have no idea why the photo cannot be rotated, ARGH!)
Anyway, when I came home, I felt uncomfortable and realized that I'd been sunburnt! Imagine the devastation!!! I hate to be sunburnt, and usually if I really do, I will be prepared for it. Today, no sunblock, no nothing, and the sunburn just crept up to me like a slithering snake! And the best part was, I was in the shade for the big part of the time, how unfair!
So, now I have red hair, and red arms, how's that for colour-matching????
Things had been pretty rough recently: The tiredness from all the traveling, continuous work and not much rest, plus those multiple persistent personal struggles. But most of all, the physical tiredness spills over to the rest of me. I long for a break - just ONE day of doing nothing and chilling out at the beach on my own, spending good time talking to God and clearing out my mind and all the clutter. Afterall, it IS the year-end and it IS time for reflection and preparing for the new year.
GOSH, I wish I could hibernate somewhere... I will be in Kunming with my whole family including the babies over Christmas, and I have a feeling I will be tired after that. Man, when can I REST??? Oh Lord, make time for me pls. I need the break, even if it is just for ONE day!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Bluetooth
This is a brand new world of wireless stuff for me. Ok, I know I have been in the caves for a long time. The world is probably using purple or black tooth while I just discovered bluetooth. I just got my new mobile phone (at long last). And there's bluetooth, so I could send music, photos to and from my phone and my ibook. Man, such accessibility is marvelous!
This is a photo I took with my new phone of the 2 loves of my life:
Well, a lil' update of my life... Been down with another bout of cold AGAIN. Yea yea, tell me about it... I am like popping pills since quite some time back. And I think my health and immunity system is really not in its best shape, as when this flu bug hits me, my body literally shuts down and I am groggy and can't do anything... That's how bad it's been for the past 2 days. But God is good. I got totally well right before I went Beijing. Oh yea, Beijing is a nice place. Here're some pics:
Met one of my aunties in Beijing... Cool rite?
Other than Beijing, think my life has been in a lil' upheavel. Well, God spoke specifically to me on Sunday, so I guess it is foolishness if I ran away like Jonah. I don't wanna waste time staying in the belly of a fish just so that God can get through to me. I learnt that as I grew as a christian, and as I know more things about God, it gets more difficult to just leap out in faith like when I was a newbie in this faith. But it is very refreshing to be reminded of how Abraham obeyed God when God asked him to sacrifice Isaac, his one and only beloved son. And David said in 2 Sam 24 that he will not sacrifice to God that which cost him nothing. Joshua challenged his people to throw away the gods that their forefathers worshipped, and to choose for themselves who they want to worship. Well, testings and temptations are but common to men, but when u are in the midst of it, things ain't as simple as they seem. I was reminded of the times when I took out the moral courage to stand for my God in the midst of persecution, to go for water baptism, etc. Those were memorable days of victory,.
Oh God, it is only by Your Grace that I can stand before You. Let me be victorious once again! You are Jehovah Nissi - my Banner! Fly High in my life O Lord!
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Rain...
Rain... the Madonna song rang in my head... ok, now, it's a retro song...
It seldom rain when I am at home, so whenever it does, it is very heartwarming and refreshing. Today especially I guess... I felt God was trying to tell me that He knows how I feel, so He sent rain... that was really sweet... I am in one of those melancholic moods... "Life is tough", my shepherd and I were affirming it this afternoon...
(I appreciate her a great deal. Our friendship has come a long way and it feels like it will go on forever... Thanks, Vivian!)
I've been thinking about a lot of things recently... oh, and it doesn't help that I am STILL sick. It started at the tail-end of Module 2 [HOORAY! I survived it!!!! it was tough-going man, but the comradeship was exhilarating] I'd been sick for more than a week and my body still feels weak... Gosh, I wonder why this time is so long...
Oh, i was talking about the lots-of-things-recently stuff... well, I feel that it's one of those periods of time when I go through thoughts that I have not had for a long time, and well, things can get quite disappointing in life at times... I am not sure how I am really feeling... is it the sickness and virus still in me that makes me tired, weak and vulnerable...? or is it a valid disappointment that I have to work through...
Lord, only You know and only You can bring about rain that brings comfort to my soul...
Year-end is here... it's always a very special time of the year... Enjoy every minute of it. 2007 will come in a twinkle of an eye...
It seldom rain when I am at home, so whenever it does, it is very heartwarming and refreshing. Today especially I guess... I felt God was trying to tell me that He knows how I feel, so He sent rain... that was really sweet... I am in one of those melancholic moods... "Life is tough", my shepherd and I were affirming it this afternoon...
(I appreciate her a great deal. Our friendship has come a long way and it feels like it will go on forever... Thanks, Vivian!)
I've been thinking about a lot of things recently... oh, and it doesn't help that I am STILL sick. It started at the tail-end of Module 2 [HOORAY! I survived it!!!! it was tough-going man, but the comradeship was exhilarating] I'd been sick for more than a week and my body still feels weak... Gosh, I wonder why this time is so long...
Oh, i was talking about the lots-of-things-recently stuff... well, I feel that it's one of those periods of time when I go through thoughts that I have not had for a long time, and well, things can get quite disappointing in life at times... I am not sure how I am really feeling... is it the sickness and virus still in me that makes me tired, weak and vulnerable...? or is it a valid disappointment that I have to work through...
Lord, only You know and only You can bring about rain that brings comfort to my soul...
Year-end is here... it's always a very special time of the year... Enjoy every minute of it. 2007 will come in a twinkle of an eye...
Friday, October 13, 2006
Under-estimation
Man, I under-estimated this module again... and you know what I heard? Module 2 is still not the most "siong" one. Module 3 will be the worst... Somebody kill me!!!!!
In Fixed Income class today, I really asked myself why in the world did I sign up for this course...???? I am SO not cut-out for these studying stuff man.... It's sooooo chim... Today is Friday - we have ONE more week to go, and I am already feeling saturated, stressed-out and most of all, stupid. You can't believe all the stuff that goes on in class... The lecturers are SO good, they think we're 1/100 of them, but some of us, like myself, are not even there, so that's where the problem is... The disparity is just too great...
I think I do get such syndrome when I study, or even when I am in the midst of major projects or a major hurdle to cross (eg., sales targets, life challenges, etc). I get so stressed up in the midst of stuffs - they can overwhlem me at times... like now...
Gosh, I dunno how I am going to absorb everything, sit for quizzes, exams, and learn the whole picture (like I did on hindsight for the last Module - that is my comfort and encouragement to press on).
Every morning I wake up and ask God to help me to get through the day cos it is just so intensive. Well, I guess one of the main result will be character-building. Oh Lord, help me and build my character.
My classmates are great! here's a picture we took after our group project with some others still in the seminar room:
Till I have the sanity to write again....
In Fixed Income class today, I really asked myself why in the world did I sign up for this course...???? I am SO not cut-out for these studying stuff man.... It's sooooo chim... Today is Friday - we have ONE more week to go, and I am already feeling saturated, stressed-out and most of all, stupid. You can't believe all the stuff that goes on in class... The lecturers are SO good, they think we're 1/100 of them, but some of us, like myself, are not even there, so that's where the problem is... The disparity is just too great...
I think I do get such syndrome when I study, or even when I am in the midst of major projects or a major hurdle to cross (eg., sales targets, life challenges, etc). I get so stressed up in the midst of stuffs - they can overwhlem me at times... like now...
Gosh, I dunno how I am going to absorb everything, sit for quizzes, exams, and learn the whole picture (like I did on hindsight for the last Module - that is my comfort and encouragement to press on).
Every morning I wake up and ask God to help me to get through the day cos it is just so intensive. Well, I guess one of the main result will be character-building. Oh Lord, help me and build my character.
My classmates are great! here's a picture we took after our group project with some others still in the seminar room:
Till I have the sanity to write again....
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Module-2 Torture starts tomorrow!!!
Tomorrow marks yet another 2 weeks of torture. Module 2 of my Masters starts tomorrow. So, for the next 2 weeks, my world will stop spinning, and all I know and see, are my classmates, and... my classmates.
I had been really stressed about going back for Module 2, because I think out of the 5 modules, this module is the worst - most "siong" one. Just 3 subjects, but they are like the heaviest...
Presenting...
HeavyWeight No. 1, weighing 1 credit, 30 hrs, here... is.... EQUITIES!!! *cheers, whistles and claps*
next, we have... weighing ALSO 1 credit, ALSO 30 hrs, here comes...... FIXED INCOME!!!!! *whistles, cheers, claps*
And last... but not least..... HeavyWeight No. 3. Weighing ALSO 1 credit..... AND ALSO.... 30 hrs..... let's put our hands together and welcome...... CORPORATE FINANCE!!!!! *crowd goes wild*
Yup, these are gonna be my source of torture for the next 2 weeks... I can't remember how Module 1 tasted already... though, I know it was TOUGH... oh Lord, be with me...
As I was dreading today to be over, (cos tomorrow comes after today), I was showered with a lot of Love.. I was blessed with PRESENTS! I mean, it's not the presents that make me feel loved, but the reasons why I was given these presents... I was soooooo touched, cos people remember and care for me...
Presenting... present No. 1, with Love from Pei Key:
And guess what's inside....?
And here comes Present No. 2, with Love from WeiZhu & Joseph A - 2 wonderful brothers from my previous CG... (Some of these people sometimes see something, and they buy me, cos they think of me... how sweet is that....?) Thanks, NG1A3!
Oh, since I haven't wrote for a long time, just something from yesterday... yesterday was quite a babies' day. I went to see my god-daughter, Claire:
And then had a 'family gathering" with Alice, Ramond, Eugene, Ah Seng. Before going off for our gathering, we went to Alice's place to see Charlize, Alice's daughter:
Last but not least, to end off my Saturday, I have my 2 cutest nephews, Shau En (Shaun):
And Shau Jet:
So, that's about it for now, folks... if I still can breathe over the next 2 weeks, I might drop a line or two... Well, don't miss me too much...cos' you won't be seeing me much... O God, Help me!
I had been really stressed about going back for Module 2, because I think out of the 5 modules, this module is the worst - most "siong" one. Just 3 subjects, but they are like the heaviest...
Presenting...
HeavyWeight No. 1, weighing 1 credit, 30 hrs, here... is.... EQUITIES!!! *cheers, whistles and claps*
next, we have... weighing ALSO 1 credit, ALSO 30 hrs, here comes...... FIXED INCOME!!!!! *whistles, cheers, claps*
And last... but not least..... HeavyWeight No. 3. Weighing ALSO 1 credit..... AND ALSO.... 30 hrs..... let's put our hands together and welcome...... CORPORATE FINANCE!!!!! *crowd goes wild*
Yup, these are gonna be my source of torture for the next 2 weeks... I can't remember how Module 1 tasted already... though, I know it was TOUGH... oh Lord, be with me...
As I was dreading today to be over, (cos tomorrow comes after today), I was showered with a lot of Love.. I was blessed with PRESENTS! I mean, it's not the presents that make me feel loved, but the reasons why I was given these presents... I was soooooo touched, cos people remember and care for me...
Presenting... present No. 1, with Love from Pei Key:
And guess what's inside....?
And here comes Present No. 2, with Love from WeiZhu & Joseph A - 2 wonderful brothers from my previous CG... (Some of these people sometimes see something, and they buy me, cos they think of me... how sweet is that....?) Thanks, NG1A3!
Oh, since I haven't wrote for a long time, just something from yesterday... yesterday was quite a babies' day. I went to see my god-daughter, Claire:
And then had a 'family gathering" with Alice, Ramond, Eugene, Ah Seng. Before going off for our gathering, we went to Alice's place to see Charlize, Alice's daughter:
Last but not least, to end off my Saturday, I have my 2 cutest nephews, Shau En (Shaun):
And Shau Jet:
So, that's about it for now, folks... if I still can breathe over the next 2 weeks, I might drop a line or two... Well, don't miss me too much...cos' you won't be seeing me much... O God, Help me!
Sunday, September 17, 2006
15th Anniversary Celebration!
It is such a privilege and honour to serve in this Family of God, with people sold out for His Cause, and sacrificial ones who just want to give their best. Thus are those I serve with in Hoep Church Singapore. Yesterday was our BIG 15th Anniversary Celebration. To us, it was BIG... It was at Expo, where all 3000 came together to worship and celebrate the goodness of God in our church.
Serving as the stage manager, it was stressful since Friday night when we had our rehearsals. As of Friday night, most things did not happen as planned. Everything was late; the sound was horrendous, lights were not even designed. I had no idea how the whole thing will turn out on Sat...
When Sat came, we were still running through transitions, and etc...
3pm, Sat, 16 Sep 06, was one of the most tensed moment in my life... It was the time when everyone in the production was waiting for my cue to roll the show... Finally, it rolled... and it rolled smoothly! Man, seeing the whole programme enravel before me was like opening a present slowly to find each wrapper seamless... Ok, except the wrong cue we gave to the stage ministers during Ps Ben's sermon.. I was utterly embarrased tho' I wasn't on stage.
I kept asking myself during the show: What am I, for God to use me in such ways...? Would I exchange this privilege to serve in His ministry for anything else...? Well, for that question, I didn't answer immediately cos' I didn't want to be frivilous and emotional about such answers... that will be another episode..
But it was a memorable event indeed. For all the events I have done, all the services, parties, etc etc, yesterday was one that was the biggest scale - 3000 people, Singapore Expo, 100-people choir, full band plus strings, dancers, multimedia, the whole works man..
Thank you all, who were involved in our celebration! It is wonderful to serve with you guys!
Oh Lord, I can't tell you enough, how grateful I am that You allowed me this honour to serve You and Your church. All glory goes to You, for it is You who created me...
Today's Sunday... feels weirdly nice to be home, sleeping till' 1030am... Tomorrow starts another week. Will be off to Taipei on Tue... Man, the thought of next 2 weeks tires me... Only You can sustain me and give me strength to carry on...
Draw me even closer to You, as I get even busier and more tired...
Serving as the stage manager, it was stressful since Friday night when we had our rehearsals. As of Friday night, most things did not happen as planned. Everything was late; the sound was horrendous, lights were not even designed. I had no idea how the whole thing will turn out on Sat...
When Sat came, we were still running through transitions, and etc...
3pm, Sat, 16 Sep 06, was one of the most tensed moment in my life... It was the time when everyone in the production was waiting for my cue to roll the show... Finally, it rolled... and it rolled smoothly! Man, seeing the whole programme enravel before me was like opening a present slowly to find each wrapper seamless... Ok, except the wrong cue we gave to the stage ministers during Ps Ben's sermon.. I was utterly embarrased tho' I wasn't on stage.
I kept asking myself during the show: What am I, for God to use me in such ways...? Would I exchange this privilege to serve in His ministry for anything else...? Well, for that question, I didn't answer immediately cos' I didn't want to be frivilous and emotional about such answers... that will be another episode..
But it was a memorable event indeed. For all the events I have done, all the services, parties, etc etc, yesterday was one that was the biggest scale - 3000 people, Singapore Expo, 100-people choir, full band plus strings, dancers, multimedia, the whole works man..
Thank you all, who were involved in our celebration! It is wonderful to serve with you guys!
Oh Lord, I can't tell you enough, how grateful I am that You allowed me this honour to serve You and Your church. All glory goes to You, for it is You who created me...
Today's Sunday... feels weirdly nice to be home, sleeping till' 1030am... Tomorrow starts another week. Will be off to Taipei on Tue... Man, the thought of next 2 weeks tires me... Only You can sustain me and give me strength to carry on...
Draw me even closer to You, as I get even busier and more tired...
Saturday, September 09, 2006
.......
I can't think of a title for this entry... It probably reflects my thoughts... They're just .......
Been having mood fluctuations lately... That's trying in itself.
Work isn't helping. I feel rather "bashed up" by clients and their issues, after taking over this portfolio for about 4 months... O Lord, only You can sustain me.
Anniversary is next week, I am SO excited! It's gonna be a "hair-raising" event, especially with all the walking-down-memory-lane stuffs. It's my privilege to be involved.
Then, there're things I hope to have, yet I know I shouldn't, I can't, and paradoxically, I don't hope to have... Read in one part of a book called "Drawing Near" by John Bevere - God may actually grant me my heart's desire if I want it SO badly, even if it's gonna hurt me. When I covet something so badly in my heart, and pray for it, God MAY give it to me... Now, THAT was quite a revelation, cos' I wouldn't want God to allow me to have the thing I so covet for in my heart, which I know is not good for me...
Ok, it seems like I am going round and round... I just need to rattle on... bear with me...
Anyway, I prayed that God will NOT give me what I want which is not good for me (and I know it very well). Sigh, life is an irony...
Well, I've been in and out of these thoughts - they tire me too...
Been having mood fluctuations lately... That's trying in itself.
Work isn't helping. I feel rather "bashed up" by clients and their issues, after taking over this portfolio for about 4 months... O Lord, only You can sustain me.
Anniversary is next week, I am SO excited! It's gonna be a "hair-raising" event, especially with all the walking-down-memory-lane stuffs. It's my privilege to be involved.
Then, there're things I hope to have, yet I know I shouldn't, I can't, and paradoxically, I don't hope to have... Read in one part of a book called "Drawing Near" by John Bevere - God may actually grant me my heart's desire if I want it SO badly, even if it's gonna hurt me. When I covet something so badly in my heart, and pray for it, God MAY give it to me... Now, THAT was quite a revelation, cos' I wouldn't want God to allow me to have the thing I so covet for in my heart, which I know is not good for me...
Ok, it seems like I am going round and round... I just need to rattle on... bear with me...
Anyway, I prayed that God will NOT give me what I want which is not good for me (and I know it very well). Sigh, life is an irony...
Well, I've been in and out of these thoughts - they tire me too...
Friday, September 01, 2006
Another week is over (",)
(",) HanLong taught me this smiley (Not sure how many knows this, or can figure it out: it's a face, with both eyes looking left, with a lil' smile). Ok, cheap thrill... Well, it's Friday-night entertainment... Hahaha.
The week's over before we know it... I pondered about how, in spite of all the grumblings of how tough times last seem to last forever, etc, time doesn't wait, and passes real quickly. Just think about it with me.. It's September already... Gosh, it seemed like only yesterday when it was February... Anyway, I guess time will only go faster, not slower... It's weird huh? I guess this perspective changes as we age...
My week has been quite good, I would say. I had a good time with God on Wed, conversing with Him on a very casual note. That time of communing was so natural and easy... Well, He IS a relational God afterall. I learnt that:
1) Tough times on earth are temporal. God and His Ways are eternal, so always keep ourselves in perspectives especially when our heads are below water.
2) As far as the east is to the west, He has thrown my sins into the sea and has separated me from the entanglement of past sins.
3) He values me SO much. I asked Him why. He simply said, cos' there is value in me. He sees a lot of value in me. If others think I am good/great, He thinks I am even better/greater, simply cos He made me and I am His child. Every parent thinks the world of their kids. (My closest experience is being aunt to my nephews - I think the world of them).
4) When I go through tough and challenging times, I AM able to bear them, simply cos He said I can. Not cos I can on my own abilities, but simply cos His Word says He will not let me be tempted beyond what I can bear. So surely, I AM able to bear them. I just sometimes need to grit my teeth and walk through it. Like I always sprout: People will only grow when they go through hard times (sounds better in Chinese).
5) He said He values me, He wants to use me to be an impact in the world (work) and in church, and that His plans are to prosper me, not to harm me (I just gotta Trust Him).
Then I was whining to God and saying, "But work is so hard sometimes...". And He said, "Just do your best on your part, and leave the rest to me." In sales, you learn what is walking by faith.
Thank you, Lord for all that I had been struggling with... At least You show interest in my character (still). Thank You for always making clear things to me - it means a lot to me. Like my shepherd said, it's important to always make sense of what you are going through...
Tomorrow's Sat... I gotta savour every moment of it... so, enjoy yours too! (",)
The week's over before we know it... I pondered about how, in spite of all the grumblings of how tough times last seem to last forever, etc, time doesn't wait, and passes real quickly. Just think about it with me.. It's September already... Gosh, it seemed like only yesterday when it was February... Anyway, I guess time will only go faster, not slower... It's weird huh? I guess this perspective changes as we age...
My week has been quite good, I would say. I had a good time with God on Wed, conversing with Him on a very casual note. That time of communing was so natural and easy... Well, He IS a relational God afterall. I learnt that:
1) Tough times on earth are temporal. God and His Ways are eternal, so always keep ourselves in perspectives especially when our heads are below water.
2) As far as the east is to the west, He has thrown my sins into the sea and has separated me from the entanglement of past sins.
3) He values me SO much. I asked Him why. He simply said, cos' there is value in me. He sees a lot of value in me. If others think I am good/great, He thinks I am even better/greater, simply cos He made me and I am His child. Every parent thinks the world of their kids. (My closest experience is being aunt to my nephews - I think the world of them).
4) When I go through tough and challenging times, I AM able to bear them, simply cos He said I can. Not cos I can on my own abilities, but simply cos His Word says He will not let me be tempted beyond what I can bear. So surely, I AM able to bear them. I just sometimes need to grit my teeth and walk through it. Like I always sprout: People will only grow when they go through hard times (sounds better in Chinese).
5) He said He values me, He wants to use me to be an impact in the world (work) and in church, and that His plans are to prosper me, not to harm me (I just gotta Trust Him).
Then I was whining to God and saying, "But work is so hard sometimes...". And He said, "Just do your best on your part, and leave the rest to me." In sales, you learn what is walking by faith.
Thank you, Lord for all that I had been struggling with... At least You show interest in my character (still). Thank You for always making clear things to me - it means a lot to me. Like my shepherd said, it's important to always make sense of what you are going through...
Tomorrow's Sat... I gotta savour every moment of it... so, enjoy yours too! (",)
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Fire-fighting week (wats new?)
This week has been a fire-fighting week. At work, phone-calls, clients' enquiries, servicing matters, etc etc, were crazy. And DON'T remind of THAT particular client who gets on my nerves by haggling for better rates. Is Private banking and Wet market synonymous....???? That irks me a greeat deal... Well, that's part and parcel of the servicing line, isn't it? *shakes head*
I'd been very tired - mentally, emotionally, physically. Thank God my spiritual state still ticks more or less... Thank You God. I'd been thinking of sooooo many things - that tires me out mentally. But I know all these thinking and pondering, struggling, tussling, haggling are necessary... Testing kinda looks like that I guess. If I don't go through this thinking, reasoning, tussling exercise, I don't think I will learn anything out of it... Lots of things that happen cause me to look at the world and ponder... I thank God I belong to His World... but of course, THAT in itself creates a tussle as well... This world is messy... Human hearts are messier...
Well, I don't really see when all these tussles in me are gonna end/slow down... but I know a couple of things: 1) I will not be tested/tempted beyond what i can bear... God knows better than me. 2) Faith is seeing the unknown. 3) He is in-charge of this testing-episode, I just gotta go through it trusting Him... Again, He knows better than me. 4) The mind is a powerful tool. i guess in many things, we gotta make the decisions in our hearts and minds. That's where change (for the better/according to His way) will really take place.
Life is really not easy nowadays... And don't ask me when I am off to Taiwan again... Not that I do not like the place (I am beginning to), but I really need a break from the travelling... Another day comes yet another day of challenges and fire-fighting in every sense - work, my heart, my mind, etc... Oh, that the Rain of the Lord will come and douse these fires when they have done their work of refinement (of my character and inner man)..
Have a Great weekend; Mine's quite short... But I still thank God for it!
I'd been very tired - mentally, emotionally, physically. Thank God my spiritual state still ticks more or less... Thank You God. I'd been thinking of sooooo many things - that tires me out mentally. But I know all these thinking and pondering, struggling, tussling, haggling are necessary... Testing kinda looks like that I guess. If I don't go through this thinking, reasoning, tussling exercise, I don't think I will learn anything out of it... Lots of things that happen cause me to look at the world and ponder... I thank God I belong to His World... but of course, THAT in itself creates a tussle as well... This world is messy... Human hearts are messier...
Well, I don't really see when all these tussles in me are gonna end/slow down... but I know a couple of things: 1) I will not be tested/tempted beyond what i can bear... God knows better than me. 2) Faith is seeing the unknown. 3) He is in-charge of this testing-episode, I just gotta go through it trusting Him... Again, He knows better than me. 4) The mind is a powerful tool. i guess in many things, we gotta make the decisions in our hearts and minds. That's where change (for the better/according to His way) will really take place.
Life is really not easy nowadays... And don't ask me when I am off to Taiwan again... Not that I do not like the place (I am beginning to), but I really need a break from the travelling... Another day comes yet another day of challenges and fire-fighting in every sense - work, my heart, my mind, etc... Oh, that the Rain of the Lord will come and douse these fires when they have done their work of refinement (of my character and inner man)..
Have a Great weekend; Mine's quite short... But I still thank God for it!
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Back from Battle-field
Thank God for His Provision all the time. He ALWAYS delivers me... tested and proven... but I still go through those bouts of stress prior to His Deliverance... I'm back from Taiwan. Thank God for that deal I closed on Thursday that bought my ticket home. It has been an interesting trip cos' I was there with a colleague, and he's quite interesting... well, any company is good for business trips I guess... It can get really lonely out there...
Through this trip, I felt that I was revisiting a lot of my basic values and principles that I hold oh-so dearly to all these years. I felt like going through New Believers 101. But it has been a wonderful revisitation... I guess we all must always go back to basics.. God, forgive me for being so forgetful. Thank You for being SO gracious, patient and loving to me...
Tomorrow starts a new week - I have mixed feelings. Perhaps it's the tiredness from all the travelling, perhaps it's from the upcoming travelling, studying, and the many big and exciting church events and things I have to do... Man, just listing them down tires me. Though I don't foresee any chance for luxurious rest, I really hope to have some time off to just realign..
Julian and Serene are back from Peru. They are very very dear friends of mine from a long time ago... I appreciate them and their work for the Lord in Lima, Peru. Will be doing some catching up with some other friends... Man, even that sounds tiring... Hahaha.
Our church's 15th Anniversary is one month away, and I am so excited about it, cos this is gonna be a BIG celebration. It's gonna be a HUGE Family party, and I am honoured to be on duty as stage manager with Cara.
Have a GREAT week ahead.. I'll keep you posted about mine. Glad to be home...
Through this trip, I felt that I was revisiting a lot of my basic values and principles that I hold oh-so dearly to all these years. I felt like going through New Believers 101. But it has been a wonderful revisitation... I guess we all must always go back to basics.. God, forgive me for being so forgetful. Thank You for being SO gracious, patient and loving to me...
Tomorrow starts a new week - I have mixed feelings. Perhaps it's the tiredness from all the travelling, perhaps it's from the upcoming travelling, studying, and the many big and exciting church events and things I have to do... Man, just listing them down tires me. Though I don't foresee any chance for luxurious rest, I really hope to have some time off to just realign..
Julian and Serene are back from Peru. They are very very dear friends of mine from a long time ago... I appreciate them and their work for the Lord in Lima, Peru. Will be doing some catching up with some other friends... Man, even that sounds tiring... Hahaha.
Our church's 15th Anniversary is one month away, and I am so excited about it, cos this is gonna be a BIG celebration. It's gonna be a HUGE Family party, and I am honoured to be on duty as stage manager with Cara.
Have a GREAT week ahead.. I'll keep you posted about mine. Glad to be home...
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Stressssss.....!!!!
It's been a rather stressful time... Back from Taiwan last Sun, and I am off again this coming Monday, and the pressure for this coming trip is greater. My boss has explicitly expressed that I should come back with some sales... So, if u dun see me around in Singapore for about 3 months, I am probably in exile in Taiwan cos we can stay there for max 3 months without a visa. Hahaha! Like I told my fellow colleague who's gong with me: this trip is a test of how strong our necks are, cos if we don't come back with any sales, our heads will probably roll... Don't be mistaken... I am saying all these lightheartedly.. So, you can chuckle... Hehehe...
I guess I have quite a lot of expectations on myself... That's a tendency... I never really considered myself a perfectionist... but I guess there's some traits of that looming around, about myself. I tend to expect a lot of myself, and sometimes that creates unnecessary burden. I thank God during this stressful time that I have Him to fall back on, always. Man, it is so comforting to know that when I look at Him, everything else pales in conparison... even stress. Like the song goes, "When all things that surround become shadows in the light of You."
I have been blessed with encouragers and cheerleaders along this way, and I am thankful for every single one of you (that includes those who dropped lines of encouragement in this blog). I guess God loves me too much to leave me alone...
I am a blessed child... He thinks the world of me... I guess that is so sufficient... His Grace is sufficient for me...
I guess I have quite a lot of expectations on myself... That's a tendency... I never really considered myself a perfectionist... but I guess there's some traits of that looming around, about myself. I tend to expect a lot of myself, and sometimes that creates unnecessary burden. I thank God during this stressful time that I have Him to fall back on, always. Man, it is so comforting to know that when I look at Him, everything else pales in conparison... even stress. Like the song goes, "When all things that surround become shadows in the light of You."
I have been blessed with encouragers and cheerleaders along this way, and I am thankful for every single one of you (that includes those who dropped lines of encouragement in this blog). I guess God loves me too much to leave me alone...
I am a blessed child... He thinks the world of me... I guess that is so sufficient... His Grace is sufficient for me...
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Easier said than done
Testings... Trials... words we always use and talk about... Again, I am going through one of these words... It's a dilemma... On one hand, testings make a person stronger. Hahaha, like my Econs lecturer said, "What can't kill you will only make you stronger." He was referring to our Econs exam of course. Well, when testings come in your face, many things are thrown in the forefront to be challenged and tested. Things you proclaim, values and principles that you hold on to all the while suddenly become mroe than just words. They become things you have to consciously and purposely live out and adhere to. It is so much easier to talk about values, principles when one is not tested, but when Testing comes in my face, I get startled and much of my foundation get shaken.
It's a matter of choice, many say. It's not about how I feel, but what God wants for me. All these are easy to say when others go through testing and you stand on the sideline cheering... but as the runner, it's a conscientious choice and doing that I have to go through... I want to be a winner. I want to finish the race. But I know that along the way, many things WILL distract me, taunt me, tempt me, test me... Oh Lord, You said it is not by my might nor power, but by Your Spirit. You said, not my will, but Yours be done. You said, You will sustain me and strengthen my feeble arms. Your servant, King David said, "My heart and my strength, many times they fail, but there is one truth that will always prevail. You are the strength of my heart and my portion forever." You Promised Your Holy Spirit to intercede for me and to help me through...
Oh Lord, help me to be an overcomer cos' it is easier said than done... By Your Spirit, I will overcome. You said You are going to chart a new chapter of my life in You. You are going to unfold the gerater plans You have for me, to take me to new heights and higher grounds, and that I will be tested. Thank You for reminding me that You have chosen me. I give You thanks in advance for going through testings to see Your Greater Glory unveiled through my life.
AMEN.
It's a matter of choice, many say. It's not about how I feel, but what God wants for me. All these are easy to say when others go through testing and you stand on the sideline cheering... but as the runner, it's a conscientious choice and doing that I have to go through... I want to be a winner. I want to finish the race. But I know that along the way, many things WILL distract me, taunt me, tempt me, test me... Oh Lord, You said it is not by my might nor power, but by Your Spirit. You said, not my will, but Yours be done. You said, You will sustain me and strengthen my feeble arms. Your servant, King David said, "My heart and my strength, many times they fail, but there is one truth that will always prevail. You are the strength of my heart and my portion forever." You Promised Your Holy Spirit to intercede for me and to help me through...
Oh Lord, help me to be an overcomer cos' it is easier said than done... By Your Spirit, I will overcome. You said You are going to chart a new chapter of my life in You. You are going to unfold the gerater plans You have for me, to take me to new heights and higher grounds, and that I will be tested. Thank You for reminding me that You have chosen me. I give You thanks in advance for going through testings to see Your Greater Glory unveiled through my life.
AMEN.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Drained...
It's been a rather tough week for me... Somehow feels like all energy has been drained outta my body, sapped away... Many people ask me the same question, "Are you alright? Is anything troubling you? Are you stressed? Are you sad? Tell me your problems... etc etc". I guess I have a face that tells it all... I am not troubled by anything in particular. I am just extremely tired... Probably used up too much of my brain cells and my body ain't used to it. Hahaha!
Perhaps one of the stress points is my business trip next week... One full week in Taiwan, plus my bosses going with me, and I am still not very familiar with the place, and language-wise, I have lots to learn... Business trips are always stressful... Thank God He is always encoouraging me to press on.
It is never easy to persevere in something (especially when it is God's will). It is always difficult to do things that I can't but God says I can. Well, if He says I can and He has opened all the doors needed for me to "can", then I have to press on till I see the fruits of my labour. I am results-oriented, so when I don't see immediate results/outcome but have to plough and sow and grow in the (long) meantime, it can get very challenging for me. Lord, thank You for always reminding me of all the things You have done to place me where I am today... That very fact keeps me going.
On Tue, I met up with Coconut, my secondary school friend. We had a GREAT time grousing, moaning, complaining, encouraging, supporting each other... It's such a wonderful fact that we are not just great long-time friends, but we are sisters-in-Christ as well... Here's one for you my dear friend! And thanks for being there!
Well, that's about it for now... You've always been a great audience!
Perhaps one of the stress points is my business trip next week... One full week in Taiwan, plus my bosses going with me, and I am still not very familiar with the place, and language-wise, I have lots to learn... Business trips are always stressful... Thank God He is always encoouraging me to press on.
It is never easy to persevere in something (especially when it is God's will). It is always difficult to do things that I can't but God says I can. Well, if He says I can and He has opened all the doors needed for me to "can", then I have to press on till I see the fruits of my labour. I am results-oriented, so when I don't see immediate results/outcome but have to plough and sow and grow in the (long) meantime, it can get very challenging for me. Lord, thank You for always reminding me of all the things You have done to place me where I am today... That very fact keeps me going.
On Tue, I met up with Coconut, my secondary school friend. We had a GREAT time grousing, moaning, complaining, encouraging, supporting each other... It's such a wonderful fact that we are not just great long-time friends, but we are sisters-in-Christ as well... Here's one for you my dear friend! And thanks for being there!
Well, that's about it for now... You've always been a great audience!
Sunday, July 23, 2006
I surVived!!!!
Phew, it's over! At least for the 1st Module... and I survived... It feels unreal, cos' I never thought this day could come... I am not a very academic person, not the most intellectual sort... So, for me to be doing my Masters with such intensity sounded unthinkable... But by His Grace, I have come thus far...
I must say that for the past 2 weeks, He has been with me, sustaining me, keeping my eyes from closing during class, encouraging and cheering me on everyday. Thank You Abba Father. And every day that I go for class, I relish in the fact that He placed me there... He has a great plan for me, and I am humbled by that fact. Exams was on Thur, Fri and Sat. Even after just the 1st paper - Capital markets, I felt a great sense of relief. FSA (Financial Statement Analysis) was a killer as expected, and the scene in the classroom was tickling... Everyone was buried under a huge load of papers and frantically flipping pages and notes to find some clues to the answers (all our exams were open-book). On Sat, we had a celebration after our Quantitative paper at the Graduates Lounge with wine and Relief as the Guest of Honour. After that, our group - A+ Limited and some other classmates went for dinner at Jumbo at Clarke Quay.
My classmates are fun, especially the one who asks the funniest questions and crack the whole class up with them. Yup, to the "earth- preciation" guy, here's One for you!
And the other 2 who always mispronounce my lovely name, and using the excuse of "closeness" to get away with it. here's One for you too!
The 2 weeks were super intensive and we were all shocked by it, but I must say that the camaradarie was enjoyable. Like I was telling them, for the past 2 weeks, no one else, other than one another, can truly understand what we went through, so I guess that makes it a shared experience, and shared experiences make friends. So my friends, we have 5 more modules (including Switzerland) to go, so let's be best of friends man!
It is my privilege to be in a class of really credible and smart people. More so, I enjoy the diversity of nationalities and cultures in the class, not mentioning the variety of professional backgrounds and experiences. So, despite the torture of intensive studying, I enjoyed the people most.
It's back to work tomorrow. What a chore... but I look forward to Friday when we meet again... without the books and exams! HOORAY!!!
I must say that for the past 2 weeks, He has been with me, sustaining me, keeping my eyes from closing during class, encouraging and cheering me on everyday. Thank You Abba Father. And every day that I go for class, I relish in the fact that He placed me there... He has a great plan for me, and I am humbled by that fact. Exams was on Thur, Fri and Sat. Even after just the 1st paper - Capital markets, I felt a great sense of relief. FSA (Financial Statement Analysis) was a killer as expected, and the scene in the classroom was tickling... Everyone was buried under a huge load of papers and frantically flipping pages and notes to find some clues to the answers (all our exams were open-book). On Sat, we had a celebration after our Quantitative paper at the Graduates Lounge with wine and Relief as the Guest of Honour. After that, our group - A+ Limited and some other classmates went for dinner at Jumbo at Clarke Quay.
My classmates are fun, especially the one who asks the funniest questions and crack the whole class up with them. Yup, to the "earth- preciation" guy, here's One for you!
And the other 2 who always mispronounce my lovely name, and using the excuse of "closeness" to get away with it. here's One for you too!
The 2 weeks were super intensive and we were all shocked by it, but I must say that the camaradarie was enjoyable. Like I was telling them, for the past 2 weeks, no one else, other than one another, can truly understand what we went through, so I guess that makes it a shared experience, and shared experiences make friends. So my friends, we have 5 more modules (including Switzerland) to go, so let's be best of friends man!
It is my privilege to be in a class of really credible and smart people. More so, I enjoy the diversity of nationalities and cultures in the class, not mentioning the variety of professional backgrounds and experiences. So, despite the torture of intensive studying, I enjoyed the people most.
It's back to work tomorrow. What a chore... but I look forward to Friday when we meet again... without the books and exams! HOORAY!!!
Saturday, July 15, 2006
A breather...
Man, it has been one of the most trying and challenging weeks of my life. Even during my school years for about 20 years of my life, nothing compares to these 2 weeks. My course is SO intensive, no one (except) my classmates can believe or imagine. Gosh, the concentration is so needed at every moment of the lectures because the moment you miss out something, it is quite hard to catch up. My classes are daily from 830a - 7p, 3 blocks of 3 hrs. And Econs is my killer.
Every single day I wake up, asking God to sustain me and give me wisdom and knowledge for the day. Every single night, my heart wells up with thanksgiving to Him for bringing me through the day. On one hand, the intensity of the course is really dreadful. (Like one of my classmates said, he asks himself "Why?" - as in why did he apply for this course, every morning.) On the other hand, I am so charged up by the mere sense of passing each challenging day. Every day I tell myself that before I know it, next weekend will come and I would have cleared Module 1. But of course, when I do not understand my Econs lecture and the IS-LM (worse still, the AS-AD) curves, and struggle during certain parts of Quantative (aka Statistics), my heart grouses and is discouraged. And for the records, I come home every night, and try my best to do some reading, just to catch up on that day's lectures/study for my pop quizzes.
It didn't help that my body crashed on the 2nd day - had a bad bout of cold and flu: stuffed nose AND runny at the same time, bad throat, headache. Gosh, in that condition, trying to grasp the IS-LM curves were like understanding Marsians. I even asked the Holy Spirit to "cover me" during my bouts of losing my brain in the thick of the lectures. Thank You Holy Spirit.
The good thing about my course is the classmates. With people from mostly Asia, diversity is quite evident. And thank God for my group - A+ Limited, who stayed late on Fri crunching the ratios and numbers for our FSA (Financial Statement Analysis) group assignment. It was a fun time!
Well, all in all, I have my fair share of grousing and complaints about this week, mainly cos I have never studied SO hard and SO intensively in my life, and intellectually and mentally, it's extremely challenging. But on the whole, I thank God that I am even doing this - that He made a way for me to get into this course, and that I survived the 1st week, i.e, half of Module 1. Oh, and of course, the not-too-bad pop quizzes for Cap Markets (esp the 2nd one, which I miraculously calcultaed the correct figures, Praise the Lord!). You rock, God!
Ok, now it's time to hit the books again... IS-LM, here I come!!!
Every single day I wake up, asking God to sustain me and give me wisdom and knowledge for the day. Every single night, my heart wells up with thanksgiving to Him for bringing me through the day. On one hand, the intensity of the course is really dreadful. (Like one of my classmates said, he asks himself "Why?" - as in why did he apply for this course, every morning.) On the other hand, I am so charged up by the mere sense of passing each challenging day. Every day I tell myself that before I know it, next weekend will come and I would have cleared Module 1. But of course, when I do not understand my Econs lecture and the IS-LM (worse still, the AS-AD) curves, and struggle during certain parts of Quantative (aka Statistics), my heart grouses and is discouraged. And for the records, I come home every night, and try my best to do some reading, just to catch up on that day's lectures/study for my pop quizzes.
It didn't help that my body crashed on the 2nd day - had a bad bout of cold and flu: stuffed nose AND runny at the same time, bad throat, headache. Gosh, in that condition, trying to grasp the IS-LM curves were like understanding Marsians. I even asked the Holy Spirit to "cover me" during my bouts of losing my brain in the thick of the lectures. Thank You Holy Spirit.
The good thing about my course is the classmates. With people from mostly Asia, diversity is quite evident. And thank God for my group - A+ Limited, who stayed late on Fri crunching the ratios and numbers for our FSA (Financial Statement Analysis) group assignment. It was a fun time!
Well, all in all, I have my fair share of grousing and complaints about this week, mainly cos I have never studied SO hard and SO intensively in my life, and intellectually and mentally, it's extremely challenging. But on the whole, I thank God that I am even doing this - that He made a way for me to get into this course, and that I survived the 1st week, i.e, half of Module 1. Oh, and of course, the not-too-bad pop quizzes for Cap Markets (esp the 2nd one, which I miraculously calcultaed the correct figures, Praise the Lord!). You rock, God!
Ok, now it's time to hit the books again... IS-LM, here I come!!!
Sunday, July 09, 2006
School's REALLY starting tomorrow...
Last week was only half a week of Prep course (Intro to Stats, Accounting, Portfolio Management, etc). And it was only a prelude to what is to come... I saw this week's schedule; i choked and had phobia already... It's full days, from 830am till 7pm. GOSH, I left school for 7 years already! Have mercy on me....
I am really challenged to do my best... Well, today Ps Jeff shared what it means by grieving the Holy Spirit. It is hearing the Holy Spirit and not obeying His Voice... Sigh, now, that challenged me even more... I felt God tell me in the midst of my class last week that I should really put in A LOT of effort in my studies, and to be the best that i can be - ALL for His Glory. That sounds like a really good proposition when I first heard it, but it immediately struck that MY part of the good proposition is that I got to really study HARD. See, I am a lazy person; I LURVE to play. Studying is really not my forte. But I know that being the head, not the tail, being the BEST in studies, at work, is glorifying Him. So, I still struggle, cos I am always afraid of committing, saying Yes, and not being able to fulfill it. I hate to be a loser. But I guess when I put in all my best efforts and the results do not turn out the way I expect it to be, it is still glorifying Him. Glorifying Him, I guess, is not just scoring and being 1st, but it's the process of excellence.
A lot of self-control has to come into play in all these things. Self-control is playing less, and studying more. Man, I feel that the theme for the rest-of-the-year is Put in Effort, Give your best - Glory to Him. Simple, yet so difficult to do, cos it's me.
I love Hope Church Singapore. It's my Family. And I do miss Ps Ben who's away ministering in our US churches. I guess that's one of the tell-tale signs that this church is my Family.
God be with me in these 2 weeks...
I am really challenged to do my best... Well, today Ps Jeff shared what it means by grieving the Holy Spirit. It is hearing the Holy Spirit and not obeying His Voice... Sigh, now, that challenged me even more... I felt God tell me in the midst of my class last week that I should really put in A LOT of effort in my studies, and to be the best that i can be - ALL for His Glory. That sounds like a really good proposition when I first heard it, but it immediately struck that MY part of the good proposition is that I got to really study HARD. See, I am a lazy person; I LURVE to play. Studying is really not my forte. But I know that being the head, not the tail, being the BEST in studies, at work, is glorifying Him. So, I still struggle, cos I am always afraid of committing, saying Yes, and not being able to fulfill it. I hate to be a loser. But I guess when I put in all my best efforts and the results do not turn out the way I expect it to be, it is still glorifying Him. Glorifying Him, I guess, is not just scoring and being 1st, but it's the process of excellence.
A lot of self-control has to come into play in all these things. Self-control is playing less, and studying more. Man, I feel that the theme for the rest-of-the-year is Put in Effort, Give your best - Glory to Him. Simple, yet so difficult to do, cos it's me.
I love Hope Church Singapore. It's my Family. And I do miss Ps Ben who's away ministering in our US churches. I guess that's one of the tell-tale signs that this church is my Family.
God be with me in these 2 weeks...
Sunday, July 02, 2006
School: a once-upon-a-time revived
man, feels kinda weird that I am going to school tomorrow.... all over again...
I am preparing my pencil-case with my coloured pens, getting all my original certificates, my transcripts, etc. So funny... it's really like going back to school.... all the registration and administrative stuffs i have to do tomorrow... Interesting...
in the meantime, I just did something I have never done before... those techie stuff that I am not good at. I downloaded some stuffs so I can chat with HanLong and actually SEE him on webcam! Man, it was surreal... technology is amazing!! really closes up the distance...
Back to school-tomorrow... don't really know what to expect... so will just go with the flow and enjoy being a student again.
I am hungry... and I am having a GREAT time chatting and watching HanLong! thank God for technology.
I am preparing my pencil-case with my coloured pens, getting all my original certificates, my transcripts, etc. So funny... it's really like going back to school.... all the registration and administrative stuffs i have to do tomorrow... Interesting...
in the meantime, I just did something I have never done before... those techie stuff that I am not good at. I downloaded some stuffs so I can chat with HanLong and actually SEE him on webcam! Man, it was surreal... technology is amazing!! really closes up the distance...
Back to school-tomorrow... don't really know what to expect... so will just go with the flow and enjoy being a student again.
I am hungry... and I am having a GREAT time chatting and watching HanLong! thank God for technology.
Monday, June 26, 2006
Lull period
Today is a lazy Monday. Sometimes I wonder where I am in my career. At this point of time, things look as if they are locked - neither here nor there. In times like this when I cannot see how I can move on in my career, I can only cling on to the Promises of God and His vision for me... It can be somewhat depressing not knowing how my career is gonna carry on from here. But I believe that ALL things work for the good of those who love Him and are faithful to His calling.
Feels like this is a lull period, cos can't do much at work now, cos i am starting school next week. Maybe that is another cause of stress and uncertainty. I am really not a very academic person... and I heard it's gonna be intense. O Lord, pls help me through it since You put me into this course. It is like a dream come true. I look forward to finishing this course and to improve myself. At least I can speak more intelligently after that.
O Lord, lift up my spirit... Only You are my true source of Joy and Strength and the Reason for all I do.
Feels like this is a lull period, cos can't do much at work now, cos i am starting school next week. Maybe that is another cause of stress and uncertainty. I am really not a very academic person... and I heard it's gonna be intense. O Lord, pls help me through it since You put me into this course. It is like a dream come true. I look forward to finishing this course and to improve myself. At least I can speak more intelligently after that.
O Lord, lift up my spirit... Only You are my true source of Joy and Strength and the Reason for all I do.
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Inner Circle
Today's CG was a GREAT time of worship and prayer and dwelling in His Presence... In Him, eveything else pales in comparison. I am always brought back to my days in Uni when things were much simpler, and I could just leap off the mountain for Him in abandonment. Today, life is more complicated - work, the world, cares of life.. But I thank God He has sustained me, to keep my love for Him.. As He said in isaiah, He will sustain me till my old age.
I thank God for the "inner circle" - my CG. To share what God spoke to me about, which was something very personal and somethng humbling... I hesitated a little while, but Inhibitions and Emma are not synonymous most of the time. I felt really quite vulnerable sharing what God spoke to me about.. It felt that my inadequacies and my lack were being displayed out... For a choleric to openly share her weaknesses or anything lesser than the best and the formidable is quite intimidating... But as His Word says, In humility, consider others better than myself... So, exposing my weaknesses, in front of the "inner circle" is not as threatening I guess.. Afterall, this is a bunch of people whom I know, will still love me despite my imperfections... Thanks, guys. It was a GREAT time of just being with The Maker, my Lord. I look forward to going Home...
I thank God for the "inner circle" - my CG. To share what God spoke to me about, which was something very personal and somethng humbling... I hesitated a little while, but Inhibitions and Emma are not synonymous most of the time. I felt really quite vulnerable sharing what God spoke to me about.. It felt that my inadequacies and my lack were being displayed out... For a choleric to openly share her weaknesses or anything lesser than the best and the formidable is quite intimidating... But as His Word says, In humility, consider others better than myself... So, exposing my weaknesses, in front of the "inner circle" is not as threatening I guess.. Afterall, this is a bunch of people whom I know, will still love me despite my imperfections... Thanks, guys. It was a GREAT time of just being with The Maker, my Lord. I look forward to going Home...
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