Thursday, September 06, 2012
Fruitfulness
Friday, June 15, 2012
New beginnings
I've been tremendously blessed by God to be in this new job. We moved in a team so it's not so lonely coping with a new environment. This is like my dream job. And over the past 3 days of training and orientation, it really reinforces this idea of this place being my dream job: people are nice , culture family-like, people believing in team work, prestigious, understanding. I feel so blessed being here. Thank You Lord. You knew this was the desire of my heart many years ago when I knew about this company. You are wonderful and You give us good things. I pray that I will be able to work in this place for the rest of my career life, ideally to be able to transfer to another place so we can go and do church planting (hopefully in China). Lord I don't know how and I don't know Your plans but I pray that You will open doors for my company to want to start an operation in China and open doors for me to go and pioneer new frontiers ! This is my heart's desire. I pray also that God will continue to level the ground before us and make all we do succeed because You are our God! All accounts and assets to be opened smoothly!
The pregnancy has been goin very well thus far. All these by the grace of God. It was Him who formed this baby perfectly and uniquely inside my womb.
Oh Lord, I have no idea what it is like to be a mother. Help me not to be over paranoid as I have this tendency. Help me to take care of this child You have so graciously entrusted to us by Your Grace.
Gerald is very happy everyday just thinking of our dear 宝宝。and it delights me to see him so delighted. That's probably how God is when he sees us.
This is a new journey, new beginnings... Lord, pls be with me every step of the way and may all I do an embark on be pleasing to You...
Friday, April 20, 2012
New layout
Monday, April 16, 2012
Enjoying Rest
Friday, March 30, 2012
JOY
Wednesday, January 04, 2012
Friday, December 23, 2011
White Christmas
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Bliss..
Bliss is just sitting here in such cool and nice December weather in Singapore, spending time with myself and God without any agenda...
Bliss is recalling the blessings that He has so generously bestowed to me and my family..
Bliss is knowing that I've walked through the valley of shadow of death and survived- not just survived but thriving in the richness of knowing Him..
Bliss is looking forward to a white Christmas in Hokkaido with my most loved one..
Bliss is awaiting the kids to come to hear them call me in excitement and joining our children's church..
Bliss is relishing in the job that He has so lavishly given me and blessing the socks out of me...
Bliss is having a boss who desires to follow God wholeheartedly, and having the privilege to partner with her for His kingdom...
Bliss is knowing God and being under the shadow of His wings- safe and secured no matter what the circumstance and environment is, and knowing Him in a way my heart wanna jump out with unspeakable joy, love and ..... BLISS
Thank You Lord for our relationship...
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Stress during this time of the year
I can't put a finger to what and how I am really feeling, but I'd been feeling tired-physically and emotionally. In my heart and mind, I entertain thoughts of running away, hiding somewhere and all. My head is tensed up so I have tension headaches. I think I am stressed.
It also doesn't help that my b*** is at my back a lot cos' of this big case. I can't complain cos' I am learning so much and all that is helping me. I don't want to let all these affect me; I don't like to be a tensed-up, sour-faced. I love to be free, love to be at ease, etc. I want God, I need Him, I really need Him so so much. Only He can help me.
At this note, I want to thank God He is in my life and that I belong to Him. I have Him to turn to, I can lament to Him, I can cast my anxieties to Him, I can cry to Him and sing to Him. And when I am in Him, when I think how wonderful He is, or how He just loves and cares for me, I cannot help but feel loved and the things of this earth will grow strangely dim.
[Just heard on podcast: Anxiety is a sin to be repented of. We don't manage anxiety, we put it to death, cos Jesus crucified our sins on the cross -Mars Hill Church]
Lord Jesus, pls help me, pls help me to not be anxious, but as I pray and give thanks, your peace which surpasses all understanding will guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus.
I'm going home tonight to listen to Christmas carols again... that transports me to winter, snow-falling windows - bliss... (of cos, with Christ in my heart)
I want it to begin to look like Christmas...
Merry Christmas
P.S: I know I don't make much sense, but I am just ranting and thinking aloud.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Biblical Interpretation Course (July - Oct 2011)
Friday, March 12, 2010
Some happenings lately
I was in Taiwan for part-work-part-play last week. Incidentally, some other people were there too... Gerald, Yam, Claudia, Shirls, Collin. They brought out the beauty of Taiwan, and I realized Taiwan is indeed a fun place to be in. I feel very blessed that God has given me the opportunity to have such enriching exoerience - to work, travel and know another place like 2nd home after Singapore. We watched Monga which was a great movie! We went to Shi Lin Night market, made new spectacles, shopped, ate, enjoyed the wonderful weather.
Mon-Tue
The Mon and Tue that just passed were very very challenging at work for me.. I nearly could not take it.. this seldom happens. The Lord reminded me of His Promise for me in Psalms 16:5-11:
5 LORD, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure.
6 The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance.
7 I will praise the LORD, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me.
8 I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
9 Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure,
10 because you will not abandon me to the grave, nor will you let
your Holy One see decay.
11 You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
You delivered me on Tuesday, thanks to my boss, and I saw Your plan unfold that bit more, and I saw Your promise coming to light a bit more. Thank You, Lord!
Currently
I watched Twilight and Twilight New Moon on the plane, and I was hooked. It was such a beautiful show - fantasy, dreamy, romantic. Yes, it's a teeny-bob kind of show, but I found myself having flashbacks of the movie, of the romance between the ever-cool-and-extremely-handsom Edward Cullens and the girl. (it's obvious the girl is not as significant as the vampire). But their love is so intense, so deep, so unreal, so beautiful...
I then learnt that Part 3 is called Eclipse and Part 4 is called Breaking Dawn. And the books are out already. After much contemplation, I went to buy Eclipse and I have been glued to it since Wednesday. Man, it was like reading one of those "Sweet Dreams" or "Sweet Valley High" romance novels when I was young. Even Gerald said he has never seen me like that... (with hints of jealousy for Edward Cullens I think, haha). Anyway, I assured him that his love for me was like Edward Cullens'. *winks*
Anyway, I hope to be able to finish the book by this weekend, and am not sure if I can resist buying part 4. Anyway, I am surpirsed at myself, for being so obsessed over this crappy, teeny-bopper kind of book. (I was even slightly embarrased when I brought the book to the cashier in the bookshop, haha). So, for once, I am very happy when people tell me they will be late for appointments with me, cos then I'll have that pocket to sneak at my book, haha.
Till Breaking Dawn (finishes), I'll be off for a while... ;)
Friday, January 15, 2010
2010....
Monday, December 21, 2009
The Lord delivers!!
I nearly teared.... because You delivered what He promised.
God, I rest in Your Promise & I am assured that You are with us.
Lord, I know everything works for the good of those who love You.
Your Promises are good and You are not One who lies,
but who will bring about Your Promises.
I declare Your perfect plan in my life.
I know 2010 will be different, cos this is the time You planned for the big change.
I pray I will only grow close to You, know You more.
It's not about the gift, but You, The Giver.
I praise You because You are so so good!
Merry Christmas!
Friday, November 20, 2009
Smell the cool air of Christmas...
I LOVE the smell of Christmas... These few mornings, when I wake up, I feel like Christmas is in the air already... I am just indulging myself in this feeling now for these 2 months. As year-end approaches, I am filled with warmth, joy, nostalgia, love, yet am plagued with apprehensions and uncertainty about the new year, as my sales targets get reset to zero & it's a year of marathon (& long-suffering) again...
It's been raining, raining, raining... and I LURVE it!
I am writing this blog partly cos it's been eons since I wrote something, and partly to just kill time as I am stuck at work during such a wonderful, festive season. When I look out of my office, I imagine people who aren't working and shopping away, soaking in the festivity... Ok, I am jealous...
Anyway, I just got back from a fire drill... saved by the bell (of boredom).
This post is pretty mundane, but I guess it's still writin something..
Ho ho ho, Merry Christmas to you!
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Loving Thy Neighbour
25On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. "Teacher," he asked, "what must I do to inherit eternal life?"
26"What is written in the Law?" he replied. "How do you read it?"
27He answered: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind'[a]; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'"
28"You have answered correctly," Jesus replied. "Do this and you will live."
29But he wanted to justify himself, so he asked Jesus, "And who is my neighbor?"
30In reply Jesus said: "A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he fell into the hands of robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. 31A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. 32So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. 33But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. 34He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, took him to an inn and took care of him. 35The next day he took out two silver coins[c] and gave them to the innkeeper. 'Look after him,' he said, 'and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.'
36"Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?"
37The expert in the law replied, "The one who had mercy on him."
Jesus told him, "Go and do likewise."
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I felt God has been working in my heart lately... One of the areas is about giving up my personal space, rights, time, sleep, energy, etc.. the point is, God has been speaking to me about me protecting myself a lot... A lot of things has been brewing, and I see a lot of things around me that are far from perfect. On one hand, they frustrate me and make me feel indignant, on the other hand, I chose indifference, because it seemed easier to deal with. After quite a lot of things that had happened, esp that in my heart in July 09, I believe God brought me thru the valley to prepare to expand my heart.
So, for the past few weeks, I felt God has been nudging me, and somehow, the Holy Spirit has been making me uncomfortable in my spirit-man. Maybe picking up the book "Meeting yourself in the parables" by Warren Wiersbe was inspired by Him. The above parable was the one that struck me a lot and brought out a lot of things I had been feeling (bad) and challenged me greatly in my soul.
I knew I had to stop being indifferent. I knew I had to do something, if not I would wallow into self-destruction cos of the disease of "Me, myself & I" ("MMI"). We were never made for this "MMI" disease. Well, we were made for fellowship! We were made for His Kingdom. We were made with eternity in our hearts! We were not made so we can lick our wounds (all the time), find means and ways to keep loving ourselves, protect our interests and needs first, and so on. God said we were made to Love Him, to fellowship with Him and to do His work! And what is His work and to love Him? It is, as He has said many times over... to love Him and to love others.
Being involved in ministry and activities does NOT equate to loving Him & loving others. We need to check our hearts for these. Today, I read 1 Samuel 15:22, "Does the LORD delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the voice of the LORD ? To obey is better than sacrifice, and to heed is better than the fat of rams." Think He desires our fellowship and our loving one another, more than us just sacrificing offerings (things) to Him. I guess, anything that is done out of the flesh and not from our heart and love, is like a resounding gong and is like burnt offerings and not (exactly) obedience.
I want to love others, to be involved, to get my hands dirty... and not stand at the sideline and complain, murmur, and just NATO (No action, talk only). I don't want to wait till conditions are more conducive or better, or wait till people do something. I guess, I want to obey God TODAY, so i want to get involved in people. I pray that He will sustain and fan this conviction which I believe was stirred up by Him (anyway).
I want to remember this lesson that God taught me personally... I am honoured to be His student and He, my Master.
Friday, June 05, 2009
Mark 11:23
Jesus said, "Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." - Mark 11:23
This verse which I read this morning as I sat at my work desk encouraged my heart greatly. Met an ex-colleague yesterday for lunch and she never fails to encourage me with her simple faith and her love for God. She was sharing with me how she prayed and asked God specifically to help her with her clients, give her boldness and courage to manage them even when they are very difficult and demanding. She said she used to pray for patience (long-suffering), but she changed her prayer and asked God for favor, boldness, protection at work. This morning, I read Shuz's blog and she testified about praying specifically (pertaining her job) and God answered her prayers man!
Last night I prayed for some stuff about my work and prayed for my hubby's business and we prayed in Jesus' name, and we claim them by His Grace. Afterall, God didn't give us a spirit of timidity, but of power, love and self-discipline! (2 Tim 2:7) I realized that having an uplifting, faith-filled spirit in prayer is not easy to sustain. It's easy to "just pray" (passively), but it takes effort and consciousness to pray with faith and with belief and to pray with power & energy.
O Lord, I want to pray with power, taking hold of Your Word! Help me!
You said in Matthew 7:7-8 [ Ask, Seek, Knock ] "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." God, these are Your written promises in your Word. I hold on to them and choose to cast away the rationalizations, the doubts, the passivity and the "weighing-of-situations". I prayed and I know I will see them come to pass: things at work WILL be better, I WILL hit my targets, not jus tthis year, but next year and every year, by His Grace. I will learn to work in my company, and I will see Your plans come to pass. Gerald WILL see fruits from his business cos it's started by You. I need thee every hour, be with me, talk to me, commune with me, that I may know that You are with me ALL the time, every hour, every minute.
Pray in faith and belief - that's what I am learning.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Kuching LC and updates
It has been pretty rough at work for the past 1 month... Rules of the game have changed, things have evolved but targets still remain, expectations are still high... it's not so much about how much bonus you are working for, but whether or not u still have ur job. But deep in my heart, I am confident that God will sustain me and keep me in my job, and I choose to believe in that because I believe He brought me into this line and He wants me to succeed. With this faith, I shall hold on to Him with regards to my job.
I've been struggling for a while now, with regards to my ministry.. but God has spoken to my heart and cheered me on.. I feel I am not up to mark, inadequate, and sort of screwed up things, but God has asked me to do what I do, and He has refreshed me with His vision for me. I have also decided to spend time listening to Him and do what He tells me to, instead of just running around solving problems. He loves me, and will help and equip me for the task He calls me to do.
It's been one year since I got married. Much has happened and transpired between us. We still have pronounced differences and differing ways of doing things and different points of views, but I thank God for Gerald because he is a wonderful man of God, with a soft heart towards Him and who loves me a lot - that was why I married him. I look forward to many many years ahead with him, that our relationship will mature like wine... I look forward to this journey that God has taken me on with Gerald.
God is the Lord of my life. I know in all things, He always takes care of me and plans the best for me, all to prosper me, not to harm me - this I am convicted of!
Friday, April 17, 2009
Aftermath of Japan...
Many people asked us how was the holiday, and good was the answer (of course). But more than the good scenary, sights, experiences, food, what was better was the time spent together, communicating, having shared experiences, bonding and just being together. We realized that reality robs a lot of quality time from us. Once we came back and I started work, I counted that at best, we spend maximum of about 4.5 hrs with each other after work, miuns the sleeping hours. And within these 4-5hrs, we eat, bathe, QT, etc... I know that's reality and that's no excuse of neglecting people around us. I guess we really have to work around whatever we have and make the best out of it.
Through things that happen in our lives, I guess we learn more about ourselves and learn more about God's character. I learnt more and more about this truth: All things work for the good of those who love Him. No matter what happens, I know His Grace is Sufficient for me to go through life with Him.
I learnt that God loves me so much, that come what may, He knows best and He works all things for my good.
Oh, this didn't turn out to be a telling of what went on in Japan and all the holiday stories... seems like it turned out to be a learning entry...
But whatever it is, I still look forward to our next holiday; I see the value in it...
Friday, March 20, 2009
Struggles and sleeplessness
I'd been reading a book called "Loving God" by Charles Colson. It's a compelling book & I encourage you to read it if you want a wake-up call for your christian walk. It's basic, yet so profound and probing. I was in Taiwan last week and I was at the book while waiting for a client. That reading gripped me (further). It exposed the evil-ness and ugliness of me, that innate desire to self-glorify, that inevitable nature of sinfulness, the natural instinct to do things my way, treat people for self-gain or self-interest. It brought about a re-awakening of my faith and brought me back to long-ago when I was an infant Christian. I felt like I was a reset. I was rather down and upset about my evil-ness, selfishness, self-interest. The only thing that encouraged me and prevented me from sliding down the way of self-condemnation and guilt-destruction was His Word, Romans 7:21-8:2 (The Message)
17-20But I need something more! For if I know the law but still can't keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don't have what it takes. I can will it, but I can't do it. I decide to do good, but I don't really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don't result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time.
21-23It happens so regularly that it's predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. I truly delight in God's commands, but it's pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge.
24I've tried everything and nothing helps. I'm at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn't that the real question?
25The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different.
Romans 8
The Solution Is Life on God's Terms
1-2With the arrival of Jesus, the Messiah, that fateful dilemma is resolved. Those who enter into Christ's being-here-for-us no longer have to live under a continuous, low-lying black cloud. A new power is in operation. The Spirit of life in Christ, like a strong wind, has magnificently cleared the air, freeing you from a fated lifetime of brutal tyranny at the hands of sin and death.
The NIV version of Romans 8:1-2 says it more in-your-face:
1Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, 2because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.
Anyway, it has been a struggle in my heart over the past week and I am still very conscious of it, which is good so that I hope I can become a better person, pleasing to God and loving others.
Back to last night... Gerald & I had a quarrel last night over something small. This is not the 1st since a few weeks back, we've been having squabbles, quarrels, disagreements over many things - small & big, trivial & important. But last night was quite a crescendo. I had prayed about this 2 nights ago and had asked God to help me be a better person and a better wife: less quarrelsome, less anal about trivia matters, less particular about things around the house, less critical or impatient. And I read another book briefly that in a marriage, you need to have the spirit of reconciliation, not retaliation. Only with the heart of reconciliation will things be mended and hurts and bitterness not grow and take deeper roots. Anyway, it dawned upon me last night how our marriage had deteriorated, how I had become totally myself and allowed myself to just "let go". I guess it is inevitable that in marriage, you see the real self of each other, but I guess good marriages are made up of sinful and "real" people who exercise self-control and grow in the Fruit of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness, goodness, self-control). I am tempted at this juncture to make a disclaimer (that I am not as horrible as what I wrote), haha, but what an irony to all the above that I mentioned. See, the self-glorification part is looming...
Anyway, I couldn't bring myself to sleep last night cos to a certain extent, I wanted to "punish" myself not to sleep but to remember how awful I have been. (Maybe something like punishing kids to stand isolated in their naughty corner) I really felt horrible about myself, and for a moment, even thought that was the point of no return. But I thank God for my loving husband who allowed me to ruminate all the thoughts and emotions in myself and telling me that God forgives us and loves us. I guess that IS the Truth which I found hard to accept. I think till' a point I decided to let go of myself and allow God to take over, to forgive me, to dispense His Grace and Mercy, then I was able to rest. Of course, all stories have an end. Gerald & I made up, sought forgiveness from each other, prayed together, watched a lil' TV and then went to bed in peace and love.
And they slept happily ever after....
Haha, till' the next time, God loves me no matter how I fail and how evil and ugly I am, because I acknowledge that I am sinful and receive Him as my Lord & Saviour!
The War over Worry
The War over Worry by Adrian Rogers
Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment? Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they? (Matt 6:25-26)
Somebody did a study about what the average person worries about. They found that forty percent of what people worry about never happens. And thirty percent of what people worry about have already happened and you can't do anything about it. Twelve percent of what the average person worries about is what others say about you, which most of the time is untrue. Finally, according to this survey, ten percent of worry deals with your health and worrying will only make that worse!
That leaves about eight percent of the things that are considered to be real problems… and worry will not do any good with these either! Why is it that we worry about a lot of things that are not going to happen or already have happened? It’s like the little lady said one time, “Don't tell me that worry doesn't do any good. Most of the things I worry about never happen.”
Let me share with you four ways you can win the war over worry:
Trust in the Lord
God wants to prove Himself to you. Let me ask you, “How do you know that the Lord is the joy of your life?” You don’t know, until He takes away your automobile or your health or your home or your family. When you say, “Jesus is all I need” make sure you can prove it. You’ll never know Jesus is all you need until Jesus is all you have.
Do Good
One of the signs that you’re not trusting God is that you drop out of your usual activities. They get down. You say, “I lost my job!” Well, what are you doing about it? “Well, I’m just sitting around the house!” Well, quit it! Get out there and do something because you’re trusting God to provide!
Delight Yourself in the Lord
Do you want to have a life of joy? Then, put your faith in something, or should I say Someone, who cannot be touched – the Lord! God isn’t finished with you until you find your greatest joy in Him alone. Now take the sentence very slowly – God is going to keep giving you this test until you pass it. He doesn’t flunk anybody out. And so, if you don’t pass this time, He’ll just run you through again.
Commit Your Way to the Lord
“Commit” literally means “to roll.” It means to roll your burden on the Lord. Whatever that burden is, you are to give it to God. His shoulders are broad enough. Matthew 11:30 says, “For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Is someone critical of you today? Give it to Jesus. Has someone hurt you? Give it to Jesus. Are you unsure about your future? Give it to Jesus.
Rest In The Lord
This word “rest” means “to be silent.” We want our answers yesterday. And God is saying, “Hush! Rest in Me!” Friend, God isn’t interested in time. He’s interested in timing. He’s never in a hurry. And He’s never late. Waiting on the Lord is like waiting for the sun to rise. You can’t hurry it. And you can’t stop it.
