Monday, March 04, 2013

Life is somewhat different...

Our Benjamin is growing up real fast. He is now about 4.5 months, and getting quite chubby. When he is not smiling, he looks serious and intense; when he smiles or chuckles, he melts a thousand hearts, of which the most is Papa & I.




We cannot stop thanking God for Benji, who has been sooooo cooperative whenever we are out (he just sleeps away), and he doesn't really cry or fuss unnecessarily. This was our constant prayer when he was still in my tummy, as we know we don't want our life and ministry to come to a standstill because we have a kid. Thankfully he loves to go out too and he enjoys people playing with him, so he has been quite easy to handle thus far. For this, we cannot stop giving thanks to God for answering our prayers. Actually I feel that having a baby is not that tough actually. I have been sleeping more (except for the night feeds which I have to wake up briefly), cos Baby sleeps, so I sleep. I praise God that He has sustained me and given me strength and tenacity. I know it is His Grace that is so sufficient for me.

Trip to Taiwan:

Inaugural flight to Taiwan




Story of his name "Benjamin"
Psalms 118:15-17

15 Shouts of joy and victory
    resound in the tents of the righteous:
“The Lord’s right hand has done mighty things!
16     The Lord’s right hand is lifted high;
    the Lord’s right hand has done mighty things!”
17 I will not die but live,
    and will proclaim what the Lord has done

Our dear friend, D, texted me one day to ask for Benji's "vital statistics" & a verse which God has given us with rgds to Benji's name. We pondered and thought, there wasn't a specific verse, cos the whole pregnancy was a journey and we had journaled the whole process and all the words and promises which the Lord has given us. One night, I recalled the passage above which I read (along with a couple other verses about the Lord's right hand), and I asked a friend who is a bible scholar specifically about the Lord's right hand. I remembered I was v encouraged then.
As I was sharing with Gerald about this passage, suddenly it struck us that Benjamin means "son of my right hand"! And in my spirit, I knew even his name was picked by God Himself & Benjamin is the son of God's right hand. He will not die but live and will proclaim what the Lord has done - Benji lived alright.

The Lord is good and faithful and He is not a vague God. He plans everything to the tee. We just need to trust Him.

In this journey of having a baby, I begin to feel the sense of belonging and family with Gerald. In the process, Gerald and I have squabbled, stepped on each other's toes even more, etc. But I find myself falling in love with this man I married all over again. He loves me, protects me, and loves our son and protects our son with all his heart. Thank You Lord, for giving me the "reason"for our son: without this wonderful husband You gave me, we wouldn't have our wonderful son.










3 months & counting...

It has been 3 good months... It wasn't as difficult or daunting as I thought, thank You, Lord.
Our little baby is growing up fast & well.
Thank God for the milk supply, as You promised in Isaiah.

Gerald has been such a wonderful daddy - everything he does with regards to you, he does it so excellently.













Thursday, November 22, 2012

One month..

寶寶樂樂 is more than one month old .. It's wonderful that he is growing well despite the first-few-weeks glitches, haha!
He has also been gaining weight which is great encouragement to a breastfeeding mama. It must be His Grace that graced me through the 1 month. I have heard many horror stories of how new moms cannot cope during their 1st month... Maybe I don't have a good memory, so memories of v difficult times during the 1 month are q vague. Of course, like what everyone says, every baby is different so you must know your baby. Haha! I am getting to know a new person indeed! I was telling some friends that I still don't feel a lot of for him cos maybe 我們相處的日子還不夠長。
But it is quite cute looking at such a small helpless baby that is supposedly mine ... And it's great joy to see Hubby so amused & happy with 樂樂。






Thank You Lord for the journey so far.. I know You are w me...

Monday, October 29, 2012

Week 2 of Motherhood

1 Nov 2012: wow, it's November already! We have our new addition to our family! Benjamin our dear son was born on 15 Oct 2012, 1002pm, after a 24hr labor then emergency C sec. The Lord was w us indeed. When I first heard his cry, my tears nearly streamed down my face... When I first saw him, I was thinking,"so you are the one... I finally get to meet u.."
It has been an interesting 2 weeks... Been at my Mum's place for confinement but had been learning the ropes of taking care and meeting the needs of this new little one... He is little indeed.
I thank God for His Grace so far that we have been coping ok- not fantastic esp when he fusses and cries for no reason, but generally we are getting by. With all the busy-ness, it is easy to forget God.. Dear Lord, pls hold me close to You all the time and not let me outta Your sight even for a moment, even when I get all caught up taking care of Baby Benjamin and not spend that quality time w You.. I don't want to walk without You or go through this without You, for You are my source of strength and Joy and You are the Giver of this gift. Lord, give me more strength, tenacity, Grace, so I can juggle more and walk closer w You...
I look forward to this coming Christmas season where Christmas is in the air. They are already putting up the lights and decorations in Orchard Rd- that is the surest sign that Christmas is in the air... I look forward to bringing our little baby out to look at the lights and sights of Christmas and spending this Christmas with our little gift from God.

Thank You Lord, for Your promise...





Thursday, September 06, 2012

Fruitfulness

Life has been fruitful, and it's humbling to know that God chooses us and blesses us so overwhelmingly. Work has been fruitful, all glory to Him... 宝宝 has been growing well and good by His Grace. He is now 32 weeks old and has been moving and wriggling inside me more and more... You have said You will give us the Grace to raise 宝宝 and we will rely on You.

Gerald and I have been talking a lot about how our lives will be after 宝宝arrives... Most of it revolves around how we desire to continue to expend ourselves for the Kingdom and not just the kid. We are inspired by godly examples around us who balance between God's Kingdom and Family. We believe that putting Him first will never be wrong. We have been very honored to hear from the Lord His plans for 宝宝, and I felt like Mary who kept all these things in her heart (as her son grew up). I believe His Words will give us the strength and the long-sightedness as we bring up our kids. We desire to impart kingdom-mindedness and the vision of eternity to our 宝宝.


Our LG has also enlarged in a very big way. We combined with another LG who already has an attendance of maximum 21 people. This made our FIRST combined LG 25 peeps - and we were blown away. Apart from the sheer size, we are also blown away by each person who makes up the LG. They are people with such tender hearts for the Lord, so willing to learn and so eager to know Him more. These hearts touch us a lot. And we pray and ask God to help us to be good leaders, shepherds who love and lead our sheep with hearts and skilful hands. Thank God for Your grace and abundance!


Our lives will probably turn upside-down in a matter of weeks and we can only look to God for His Strength and His Grace.

Lord, You have been so so good to us. Thank You Lord!

Friday, June 15, 2012

New beginnings

I started on my new job in a new place. We are also awaiting excitedly the arrival of our dear 宝宝. This year is such a great year of big changes for me- the job and the baby.

I've been tremendously blessed by God to be in this new job. We moved in a team so it's not so lonely coping with a new environment. This is like my dream job. And over the past 3 days of training and orientation, it really reinforces this idea of this place being my dream job: people are nice , culture family-like, people believing in team work, prestigious, understanding. I feel so blessed being here. Thank You Lord. You knew this was the desire of my heart many years ago when I knew about this company. You are wonderful and You give us good things. I pray that I will be able to work in this place for the rest of my career life, ideally to be able to transfer to another place so we can go and do church planting (hopefully in China). Lord I don't know how and I don't know Your plans but I pray that You will open doors for my company to want to start an operation in China and open doors for me to go and pioneer new frontiers ! This is my heart's desire. I pray also that God will continue to level the ground before us and make all we do succeed because You are our God! All accounts and assets to be opened smoothly!

The pregnancy has been goin very well thus far. All these by the grace of God. It was Him who formed this baby perfectly and uniquely inside my womb.
Oh Lord, I have no idea what it is like to be a mother. Help me not to be over paranoid as I have this tendency. Help me to take care of this child You have so graciously entrusted to us by Your Grace.
Gerald is very happy everyday just thinking of our dear 宝宝。and it delights me to see him so delighted. That's probably how God is when he sees us.
This is a new journey, new beginnings... Lord, pls be with me every step of the way and may all I do an embark on be pleasing to You...

Friday, April 20, 2012

New layout

This new layout looks fresher and happier... Fits my mood... I'm starting to enjoy my rest days... I know I will surely miss this when I start work again. So, I must cherish every moment of these days, thank You God for this wonderful opportunity and time.
"寶寶" as we call our baby is doing well, thank God! I am in Week 11, and I saw 寶寶bouncing in the ultrasound.
God has been blessing us. Indeed, Joy comes in the morning, and after weeping and night. This started with much much anxiety and scares, but I'm beginning to enjoy the trust in the Lord, as He said, that all will be well. He is doing a new thing, now it springs up; He is making a way in the dessert and streams in the wasteland. You are the Giver of life and You will preserve and grow it.
Thank You for Your faithfulness; You never, ever fail.

Monday, April 16, 2012

Enjoying Rest

Rest is something that has always been lacking and difficult for me. Being such an action-pack, active person, rest - physically or any other kind is difficult for me. The Lord has His way of helping me with this, and I hope to cherish it while it lasts. Having to be bed-bound for about 3-4 weeks, being in-between jobs (yes, His timing is perfect!), having to walk slower, pack less activities as I am more conscious of the need to take things slow and restful, I am now appreciating the time on hand. I can go out a bit more now, but still have to exercise self-control (yet-another Fruit to develop). I enjoy better, the days when I stay home to just rest and have no activities, sleeping, watching TV, surfing the net, in-between doing some work here and there. I keep reminding myself that I must savour and enjoy this time, as I don't think such luxury will come another time...
Lord, thank You for this great period of rest and luxury. You timed this, so I am so thankful to You. I want to live in this moment for I know I will look back and envy this time. "Be joyful always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."1 Thess 5:16-18

Friday, March 30, 2012

JOY

J O Y

This has been a word that God has been speaking to me, exhorting and encouraging me to be and do over the past 3 weeks... Joy and worship - they are somewhat synonymous.
20 Mar 2012 (Tue): I was prompted in the morning when hubby and I were praying, to pray for JOY. That afternoon, a dear friend came to visit me, and said she felt the same thing when she was praying for me. The days after that were bombarded with a lot of words in the bible about joy.
Psalm 16:11 "... you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasure at your right hand."
1 Thess 5:16-18 "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances , for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."
Rom 12:12 "Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer."
Heb 12:2 "Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and Perfector of our faith, who for the JOY set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."
I asked God, how to have joy, be joyful? It's in Psalm 16:11, that in his presence there is fullness of JOY.
I battle with negative thoughts, the past bad experiences. As I was sharing with a friend, as we believe the Words and promises that God has given me, I must learn to live out the promises, then my life will be congruent... if not I am double-minded.

Lord, help me with my unbelief. Unbelief is the natural and not of you. Your realm is faith and the supernatural, and we have the authority to tap the supernatural to overcome the natural of this world.

We look forward to the JOY set before us O Lord. Preserve me and build my faith in You. You are Good and perfect. No one else compares with you...

Wednesday, January 04, 2012

Friday, December 23, 2011

White Christmas

Gerald took me to Hokkaido for a White Christmas... It was such a beautiful time... We flew into Hokkaido from Taiwan. Everything was powder snowy white. Romantic was the theme of the day. With falling snow, Christmas music playing along the streets and Christmas lightings and decorations.
This is one holiday I will remember for a long time...

Thank you, baby.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Bliss..

Bliss is sitting at Starbucks with great music that sing of God and all He is, reading His Word intermittently and writing intermittently..
Bliss is just sitting here in such cool and nice December weather in Singapore, spending time with myself and God without any agenda...
Bliss is recalling the blessings that He has so generously bestowed to me and my family..
Bliss is knowing that I've walked through the valley of shadow of death and survived- not just survived but thriving in the richness of knowing Him..
Bliss is looking forward to a white Christmas in Hokkaido with my most loved one..
Bliss is awaiting the kids to come to hear them call me in excitement and joining our children's church..
Bliss is relishing in the job that He has so lavishly given me and blessing the socks out of me...
Bliss is having a boss who desires to follow God wholeheartedly, and having the privilege to partner with her for His kingdom...
Bliss is knowing God and being under the shadow of His wings- safe and secured no matter what the circumstance and environment is, and knowing Him in a way my heart wanna jump out with unspeakable joy, love and ..... BLISS

Thank You Lord for our relationship...

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Stress during this time of the year

It's been a stressful time... but it's beginning to look like Christmas.... They DO NOT jive... I've been working hard on a big case at work; "Praise God", one part of me rejoices; "but it's so hard... I feel like just walking away", the other part of me laments. Thankfully these few nights after work are just time to chill... Hubby & I have just been spending time walking, talking to God, and just not doing something after wor. Hubs have been stressed out too... I make myself sane by listening to Michael Buble's Christmas songs, haha.
I can't put a finger to what and how I am really feeling, but I'd been feeling tired-physically and emotionally. In my heart and mind, I entertain thoughts of running away, hiding somewhere and all. My head is tensed up so I have tension headaches. I think I am stressed.
It also doesn't help that my b*** is at my back a lot cos' of this big case. I can't complain cos' I am learning so much and all that is helping me. I don't want to let all these affect me; I don't like to be a tensed-up, sour-faced. I love to be free, love to be at ease, etc. I want God, I need Him, I really need Him so so much. Only He can help me.
At this note, I want to thank God He is in my life and that I belong to Him. I have Him to turn to, I can lament to Him, I can cast my anxieties to Him, I can cry to Him and sing to Him. And when I am in Him, when I think how wonderful He is, or how He just loves and cares for me, I cannot help but feel loved and the things of this earth will grow strangely dim.
[Just heard on podcast: Anxiety is a sin to be repented of. We don't manage anxiety, we put it to death, cos Jesus crucified our sins on the cross -Mars Hill Church]

Lord Jesus, pls help me, pls help me to not be anxious, but as I pray and give thanks, your peace which surpasses all understanding will guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus.

I'm going home tonight to listen to Christmas carols again... that transports me to winter, snow-falling windows - bliss... (of cos, with Christ in my heart)

I want it to begin to look like Christmas...

Merry Christmas

P.S: I know I don't make much sense, but I am just ranting and thinking aloud.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Biblical Interpretation Course (July - Oct 2011)

It's been over a year since I last wrote and updated my blog. Thanks to Bro Casey (*curtsies*) from my Biblical Interpretation course, that I am now finally writing SOMETHING on my blog. Under the good influence and encouragement of our dear friend, D, Gerald and I decided to take the step of faith to sign up for a course in AGBC (Assemblies of God Bible College) - BIBLICAL INTERPRETATION. We thought it was good and necessary for us to learn how to interpret the bible correctly, as we desire to serve God more effectively in His Kingdom and leading His people. I remember Gerald & I had this conversation when we were on holiday in Perth in May this year and we discussed about taking up this course. We felt that in this day and age it is not the most straightforward thing in understanding the bible holistically; more so, to apply it correctly in our lives and in helping others walk closer to God. Despite the challenge of having to commit one night per week to attend class (and not forgetting doing homework), we decided to take the leap. It helped that 6 of us friends signed up together, and that was the beginning of a fun course.

This blog entry is our final homework to blog about our learning experience. This entry is a reflection of 5 interesting ideas/concepts/practices that I have gleaned through this class-every aspect of it.

1. Interpreting the bible is tough work! With all the different tools to help us to interpret God's Word, it is really not how we thought it was done before attending this class. There are so many factors that can affect the way we interpret God's Word! There is the Historical context, the Literary Context, questions of content, the World of the text, the World of the reader, Biblical Narratives, the Genres, etc. It seemed to me that to interpret correctly, we need to employ all these tools to get a clearer and more accurate interpretation of the particular passage we are studying.

Having gone through this course, my challenge is really to put in hard work (though I must qualify that it is easier said than done) to read God's Word in its rightful manner, and not just read it at face value. (Then again, we also learnt that sometimes, we have to take the word at its face-value). Applying the different tools of interpretation will help me to expound on a passage better for better understanding, and to teach and share better with others.

2. Diagramming. I love diagramming! I felt it was a practical and one of the more comprehensive way of de-constructing a passage, and it was a good way to see the overview and thrust of the passage. Of course, not forgetting "fanboys"- Conjunctions.

After doing diagramming, the main thrust of a passage can be so different from what we thought it to be in the beginning, and this may totally swing the main message from what it is actually supposed to be. I remember of an example shown, of the points of a sermon from a passage which was so different from what it was supposed to be, after diagramming. It affirmed that as leaders or teachers, God will hold us accountable for what we teach, so we have to do our best in presenting the whole and proper truth of God's word.

3. Many people are misled and misinterpreting the bible. From the many examples shared by Bro Casey, for example, Phil 4:13, 2 Kings 2:9, I learnt that it is so important to know the context and the world of the text. I learnt also, how to look at a passage to see if the principle has to do with moral absolutes and cultural relevance. Many people, even myself, are reading God's Word and applying it incorrectly, knowingly or unknowingly. It's scary that many times, we read God's Word according to what we want to hear and interpret. I feel the challenge is to apply what we have learnt in Biblical Interpretation to our reading of the Word, and to keep practising so it becomes a filter in us to interpret the Word as best as we know how. I remember Bro Casey shared an example of the song that he used to sing about "Cover me, Lord"or something, and how we sing songs that are even incorrectly interpreted. It's very subtle (and this is the scariest part), that wrong interpretations and applications of the Word may cause us to have wrong concepts and teach wrong things to God's people.

I want to be someone who learns and understands as whole a truth of the bible as possible, so I can know God better and to teach others better. I also want to apply God's truth correctly and appropriately so that I do not digress from the truth, even that 1 degree.

4. 1 Thess 4:3-8. This passage is quite hard to forget. Our homework was all on this passage. But what struck me, what our final CGP, which required us to think of how we can contextualize this passage to our world and culture today, and I learnt that the world then, is somewhat similar to our world today.

I am even more convinced that God's principles, though sometimes deemed old-fashioned, prudish, simple, even idealistic, is still applicable and works in our world today. Our God is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow indeed. Through the different homework exploring different aspects of this passage, it helped to really see this passage as what was important rather than what we thought, or seemed important. It is indeed God's will that we be sanctified, to live a life of holiness, by not indulging in sexual immorality but to lead pure lives.

5. Last but not least, the fellowship among the saints was unforgettable. Thank you, Bro Casey for making us work in groups. We had good times sharing our lives and testimonies with one another. It was heartwarming to see my group being so willing to help one another, and putting in their best efforts to help get the work done. What touched me was the willingness to cover one of our group mates, J, when she was going through a difficult time in her family. Everyone was so understanding, and everyone chipped in to relief her work. But J was also amazing, as we saw her heart of wanting to contribute in any way she could, even in the midst of her family situation. Thanks, Fiery Five. You guys made the course great fun!

God indeed put us in communities for us to learn, grow and love. I learnt to get to know people for who they are, as every face tells a story indeed.

This course has been very beneficial. Though it was challenging doing the homework and all, it was worth it, as we learnt more through our homework. Thank God for Bro Casey who taught with passion and with great wisdom. Kudos to you, teacher!

My personal conclusion after going through this class, is that, we can never fully and completely interpret the bible, because we only know in part. I guess that is why Jesus is the Author and Perfector of our faith, and we live out our faith as best as we know how. I know God is most pleased when we live out our faith and live out His Word. Learning the Word in a deeper way helps me then, to live out my life as a pleasing sacrifice, holy and acceptable to Him. I know this is Eternal Life and this is what pleases Him.

(Of course, I do feel a bit smarter after this class, haha!)


Friday, March 12, 2010

Some happenings lately

Taiwan

I was in Taiwan for part-work-part-play last week. Incidentally, some other people were there too... Gerald, Yam, Claudia, Shirls, Collin. They brought out the beauty of Taiwan, and I realized Taiwan is indeed a fun place to be in. I feel very blessed that God has given me the opportunity to have such enriching exoerience - to work, travel and know another place like 2nd home after Singapore. We watched Monga which was a great movie! We went to Shi Lin Night market, made new spectacles, shopped, ate, enjoyed the wonderful weather.

Mon-Tue
The Mon and Tue that just passed were very very challenging at work for me.. I nearly could not take it.. this seldom happens. The Lord reminded me of His Promise for me in Psalms 16:5-11:

5 LORD, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure.
6 The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance.
7 I will praise the LORD, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me.
8 I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
9 Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure,
10 because you will not abandon me to the grave, nor will you let
your Holy One see decay.
11 You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.

You delivered me on Tuesday, thanks to my boss, and I saw Your plan unfold that bit more, and I saw Your promise coming to light a bit more. Thank You, Lord!

Currently

I watched Twilight and Twilight New Moon on the plane, and I was hooked. It was such a beautiful show - fantasy, dreamy, romantic. Yes, it's a teeny-bob kind of show, but I found myself having flashbacks of the movie, of the romance between the ever-cool-and-extremely-handsom Edward Cullens and the girl. (it's obvious the girl is not as significant as the vampire). But their love is so intense, so deep, so unreal, so beautiful...

I then learnt that Part 3 is called Eclipse and Part 4 is called Breaking Dawn. And the books are out already. After much contemplation, I went to buy Eclipse and I have been glued to it since Wednesday. Man, it was like reading one of those "Sweet Dreams" or "Sweet Valley High" romance novels when I was young. Even Gerald said he has never seen me like that... (with hints of jealousy for Edward Cullens I think, haha). Anyway, I assured him that his love for me was like Edward Cullens'. *winks*

Anyway, I hope to be able to finish the book by this weekend, and am not sure if I can resist buying part 4. Anyway, I am surpirsed at myself, for being so obsessed over this crappy, teeny-bopper kind of book. (I was even slightly embarrased when I brought the book to the cashier in the bookshop, haha). So, for once, I am very happy when people tell me they will be late for appointments with me, cos then I'll have that pocket to sneak at my book, haha.

Till Breaking Dawn (finishes), I'll be off for a while... ;)

Friday, January 15, 2010

2010....

We're in 2010! Seemed so faraway when we were in our 1996... Yr 2000 was a big millennium, and in a flash, we have passed a decade in the new millennium..... big thing...
Well, 2009 closed on quite a painful note... we lost it again... this time it was more painful than the previous two, cos we had higher hopes. There wasn't any heartbeat. The loss and the disappointment were heart wrenching. The feelings were deja vu too... We just had to deal with it. We were looking forward very much to 2010 cos' we were expecting a bundle of joy, but the turn of events sent us into a whirl of loss and confusion.
I asked Him why, even though I know for a fact and with deep conviction that He IS good and has the best plan for my life. I cried everytime I thought of what I lost (again). It was quite a dazed week whilst I recuperated at my mum's place... then we went to visit a couple who has had the same experiences before. I thought I'd be sobbing the whole time during the visit, but amazingly, I was soooo encouraged in my heart and lifted in my spirit! Indeed, we overcome with the testimony of the saints! I concluded after the visit, that I may never know why it happened, and why my Ever-Loving Father allowed it. But I know that He will never 'waste" ANYTHING that happens in our lives, and I know that I have the opportunity to know Him more. It's really not about knowing the whys to all of life's happenings, but it's really about Knowing Him. I look forward to knowing Him for Who He is, not what He gives/bestows/blesses.
We went away for a short trip to Phuket on a last-minute decision, and had a great rest there. The villa was v v lovely, surrounded with lush greenery and foilage. We just spent the morning reading on the day bed with the rain falling outside... It was a wonderful feeling of freshness and rest...
We thank God for all the good things He has given us... I thank God even more for my dear husband, the greater gift (than what i lost) whom He has blessed me with. I thank God for saving me from eternal death, and gave me eternal life. i thank God for giving me so so many good gifts in my lifetime - my family, my house, my church, my job and many more. How can I look at this (seemingly) bad thing and fault Him for not being good to me...? That, will be too petty and narrow-minded.
I am back at work this week already, sorted out what happened, dealt with the loss and emotions, and ready to start the new exciting year and being eager to know Him and what He's gonna do in my life.
My friends, if you are reading this, and feel bad for me, or even question about why God, if He is
good and loving, will allow such things to happen...? I can only say that things happen to everyone - christians, non-christians alike. The same sun shines on both, but the great thing is that, because He loves me and has saved me and for what he has done on the cross for me, I have hope amidst the valleys. And I have also learnt, that, it is in the valleys that He will carry me through... and.... morning ALWAYS comes...
I want to walk with You all the days of my life, for better or for worse, till death do us meet....
Happy New Year!

Monday, December 21, 2009

The Lord delivers!!

PT said "You see that?"

I nearly teared.... because You delivered what He promised.
God, I rest in Your Promise & I am assured that You are with us.
Lord, I know everything works for the good of those who love You.
Your Promises are good and You are not One who lies,
but who will bring about Your Promises.
I declare Your perfect plan in my life.
I know 2010 will be different, cos this is the time You planned for the big change.
I pray I will only grow close to You, know You more.
It's not about the gift, but You, The Giver.
I praise You because You are so so good!

Merry Christmas!

Friday, November 20, 2009

Smell the cool air of Christmas...

*sniff sniff*

I LOVE the smell of Christmas... These few mornings, when I wake up, I feel like Christmas is in the air already... I am just indulging myself in this feeling now for these 2 months. As year-end approaches, I am filled with warmth, joy, nostalgia, love, yet am plagued with apprehensions and uncertainty about the new year, as my sales targets get reset to zero & it's a year of marathon (& long-suffering) again...

It's been raining, raining, raining... and I LURVE it!

I am writing this blog partly cos it's been eons since I wrote something, and partly to just kill time as I am stuck at work during such a wonderful, festive season. When I look out of my office, I imagine people who aren't working and shopping away, soaking in the festivity... Ok, I am jealous...

Anyway, I just got back from a fire drill... saved by the bell (of boredom).

This post is pretty mundane, but I guess it's still writin something..

Ho ho ho, Merry Christmas to you!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Loving Thy Neighbour

The Parable of the Good Samaritan (Luke 10:25-37)

25On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. "Teacher," he asked, "what must I do to inherit eternal life?"
26"What is written in the Law?" he replied. "How do you read it?"

27He answered: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind'[a]; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'"

28"You have answered correctly," Jesus replied. "Do this and you will live."

29But he wanted to justify himself, so he asked Jesus, "And who is my neighbor?"

30In reply Jesus said: "A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he fell into the hands of robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. 31A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. 32So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. 33But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. 34He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, took him to an inn and took care of him. 35The next day he took out two silver coins[c] and gave them to the innkeeper. 'Look after him,' he said, 'and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.'

36"Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?"

37The expert in the law replied, "The one who had mercy on him."
Jesus told him, "Go and do likewise."


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I felt God has been working in my heart lately... One of the areas is about giving up my personal space, rights, time, sleep, energy, etc.. the point is, God has been speaking to me about me protecting myself a lot... A lot of things has been brewing, and I see a lot of things around me that are far from perfect. On one hand, they frustrate me and make me feel indignant, on the other hand, I chose indifference, because it seemed easier to deal with. After quite a lot of things that had happened, esp that in my heart in July 09, I believe God brought me thru the valley to prepare to expand my heart.

So, for the past few weeks, I felt God has been nudging me, and somehow, the Holy Spirit has been making me uncomfortable in my spirit-man. Maybe picking up the book "Meeting yourself in the parables" by Warren Wiersbe was inspired by Him. The above parable was the one that struck me a lot and brought out a lot of things I had been feeling (bad) and challenged me greatly in my soul.

I knew I had to stop being indifferent. I knew I had to do something, if not I would wallow into self-destruction cos of the disease of "Me, myself & I" ("MMI"). We were never made for this "MMI" disease. Well, we were made for fellowship! We were made for His Kingdom. We were made with eternity in our hearts! We were not made so we can lick our wounds (all the time), find means and ways to keep loving ourselves, protect our interests and needs first, and so on. God said we were made to Love Him, to fellowship with Him and to do His work! And what is His work and to love Him? It is, as He has said many times over... to love Him and to love others.

Being involved in ministry and activities does NOT equate to loving Him & loving others. We need to check our hearts for these. Today, I read 1 Samuel 15:22, "Does the LORD delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the voice of the LORD ? To obey is better than sacrifice, and to heed is better than the fat of rams." Think He desires our fellowship and our loving one another, more than us just sacrificing offerings (things) to Him. I guess, anything that is done out of the flesh and not from our heart and love, is like a resounding gong and is like burnt offerings and not (exactly) obedience.

I want to love others, to be involved, to get my hands dirty... and not stand at the sideline and complain, murmur, and just NATO (No action, talk only). I don't want to wait till conditions are more conducive or better, or wait till people do something. I guess, I want to obey God TODAY, so i want to get involved in people. I pray that He will sustain and fan this conviction which I believe was stirred up by Him (anyway).

I want to remember this lesson that God taught me personally... I am honoured to be His student and He, my Master.

Friday, June 05, 2009

Mark 11:23

Jesus said, "Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." - Mark 11:23

This verse which I read this morning as I sat at my work desk encouraged my heart greatly. Met an ex-colleague yesterday for lunch and she never fails to encourage me with her simple faith and her love for God. She was sharing with me how she prayed and asked God specifically to help her with her clients, give her boldness and courage to manage them even when they are very difficult and demanding. She said she used to pray for patience (long-suffering), but she changed her prayer and asked God for favor, boldness, protection at work. This morning, I read Shuz's blog and she testified about praying specifically (pertaining her job) and God answered her prayers man!

Last night I prayed for some stuff about my work and prayed for my hubby's business and we prayed in Jesus' name, and we claim them by His Grace. Afterall, God didn't give us a spirit of timidity, but of power, love and self-discipline! (2 Tim 2:7) I realized that having an uplifting, faith-filled spirit in prayer is not easy to sustain. It's easy to "just pray" (passively), but it takes effort and consciousness to pray with faith and with belief and to pray with power & energy.

O Lord, I want to pray with power, taking hold of Your Word! Help me!

You said in Matthew 7:7-8 [ Ask, Seek, Knock ] "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." God, these are Your written promises in your Word. I hold on to them and choose to cast away the rationalizations, the doubts, the passivity and the "weighing-of-situations". I prayed and I know I will see them come to pass: things at work WILL be better, I WILL hit my targets, not jus tthis year, but next year and every year, by His Grace. I will learn to work in my company, and I will see Your plans come to pass. Gerald WILL see fruits from his business cos it's started by You. I need thee every hour, be with me, talk to me, commune with me, that I may know that You are with me ALL the time, every hour, every minute.

Pray in faith and belief - that's what I am learning.