Fire-fighting week (wats new?)

This week has been a fire-fighting week. At work, phone-calls, clients' enquiries, servicing matters, etc etc, were crazy. And DON'T remind of THAT particular client who gets on my nerves by haggling for better rates. Is Private banking and Wet market synonymous....???? That irks me a greeat deal... Well, that's part and parcel of the servicing line, isn't it? *shakes head*

I'd been very tired - mentally, emotionally, physically. Thank God my spiritual state still ticks more or less... Thank You God. I'd been thinking of sooooo many things - that tires me out mentally. But I know all these thinking and pondering, struggling, tussling, haggling are necessary... Testing kinda looks like that I guess. If I don't go through this thinking, reasoning, tussling exercise, I don't think I will learn anything out of it... Lots of things that happen cause me to look at the world and ponder... I thank God I belong to His World... but of course, THAT in itself creates a tussle as well... This world is messy... Human hearts are messier...

Well, I don't really see when all these tussles in me are gonna end/slow down... but I know a couple of things: 1) I will not be tested/tempted beyond what i can bear... God knows better than me. 2) Faith is seeing the unknown. 3) He is in-charge of this testing-episode, I just gotta go through it trusting Him... Again, He knows better than me. 4) The mind is a powerful tool. i guess in many things, we gotta make the decisions in our hearts and minds. That's where change (for the better/according to His way) will really take place.

Life is really not easy nowadays... And don't ask me when I am off to Taiwan again... Not that I do not like the place (I am beginning to), but I really need a break from the travelling... Another day comes yet another day of challenges and fire-fighting in every sense - work, my heart, my mind, etc... Oh, that the Rain of the Lord will come and douse these fires when they have done their work of refinement (of my character and inner man)..

Have a Great weekend; Mine's quite short... But I still thank God for it!

Back from Battle-field

Thank God for His Provision all the time. He ALWAYS delivers me... tested and proven... but I still go through those bouts of stress prior to His Deliverance... I'm back from Taiwan. Thank God for that deal I closed on Thursday that bought my ticket home. It has been an interesting trip cos' I was there with a colleague, and he's quite interesting... well, any company is good for business trips I guess... It can get really lonely out there...

Through this trip, I felt that I was revisiting a lot of my basic values and principles that I hold oh-so dearly to all these years. I felt like going through New Believers 101. But it has been a wonderful revisitation... I guess we all must always go back to basics.. God, forgive me for being so forgetful. Thank You for being SO gracious, patient and loving to me...

Tomorrow starts a new week - I have mixed feelings. Perhaps it's the tiredness from all the travelling, perhaps it's from the upcoming travelling, studying, and the many big and exciting church events and things I have to do... Man, just listing them down tires me. Though I don't foresee any chance for luxurious rest, I really hope to have some time off to just realign..

Julian and Serene are back from Peru. They are very very dear friends of mine from a long time ago... I appreciate them and their work for the Lord in Lima, Peru. Will be doing some catching up with some other friends... Man, even that sounds tiring... Hahaha.

Our church's 15th Anniversary is one month away, and I am so excited about it, cos this is gonna be a BIG celebration. It's gonna be a HUGE Family party, and I am honoured to be on duty as stage manager with Cara.

Have a GREAT week ahead.. I'll keep you posted about mine. Glad to be home...

Stressssss.....!!!!

It's been a rather stressful time... Back from Taiwan last Sun, and I am off again this coming Monday, and the pressure for this coming trip is greater. My boss has explicitly expressed that I should come back with some sales... So, if u dun see me around in Singapore for about 3 months, I am probably in exile in Taiwan cos we can stay there for max 3 months without a visa. Hahaha! Like I told my fellow colleague who's gong with me: this trip is a test of how strong our necks are, cos if we don't come back with any sales, our heads will probably roll... Don't be mistaken... I am saying all these lightheartedly.. So, you can chuckle... Hehehe...

I guess I have quite a lot of expectations on myself... That's a tendency... I never really considered myself a perfectionist... but I guess there's some traits of that looming around, about myself. I tend to expect a lot of myself, and sometimes that creates unnecessary burden. I thank God during this stressful time that I have Him to fall back on, always. Man, it is so comforting to know that when I look at Him, everything else pales in conparison... even stress. Like the song goes, "When all things that surround become shadows in the light of You."

I have been blessed with encouragers and cheerleaders along this way, and I am thankful for every single one of you (that includes those who dropped lines of encouragement in this blog). I guess God loves me too much to leave me alone...

I am a blessed child... He thinks the world of me... I guess that is so sufficient... His Grace is sufficient for me...

Easier said than done

Testings... Trials... words we always use and talk about... Again, I am going through one of these words... It's a dilemma... On one hand, testings make a person stronger. Hahaha, like my Econs lecturer said, "What can't kill you will only make you stronger." He was referring to our Econs exam of course. Well, when testings come in your face, many things are thrown in the forefront to be challenged and tested. Things you proclaim, values and principles that you hold on to all the while suddenly become mroe than just words. They become things you have to consciously and purposely live out and adhere to. It is so much easier to talk about values, principles when one is not tested, but when Testing comes in my face, I get startled and much of my foundation get shaken.
It's a matter of choice, many say. It's not about how I feel, but what God wants for me. All these are easy to say when others go through testing and you stand on the sideline cheering... but as the runner, it's a conscientious choice and doing that I have to go through... I want to be a winner. I want to finish the race. But I know that along the way, many things WILL distract me, taunt me, tempt me, test me... Oh Lord, You said it is not by my might nor power, but by Your Spirit. You said, not my will, but Yours be done. You said, You will sustain me and strengthen my feeble arms. Your servant, King David said, "My heart and my strength, many times they fail, but there is one truth that will always prevail. You are the strength of my heart and my portion forever." You Promised Your Holy Spirit to intercede for me and to help me through...
Oh Lord, help me to be an overcomer cos' it is easier said than done... By Your Spirit, I will overcome. You said You are going to chart a new chapter of my life in You. You are going to unfold the gerater plans You have for me, to take me to new heights and higher grounds, and that I will be tested. Thank You for reminding me that You have chosen me. I give You thanks in advance for going through testings to see Your Greater Glory unveiled through my life.

AMEN.