Miss Black

Read Fenny's blog, and attempted the color test myself... *drum roll* I am BLACK! Mmm, I thought I only like to wear black, didn't think I am actually a BLACK at heart.



Your true color is Black!



Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

What's Your True Color?

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Mmm, don't think I am as stiff, strict as the Black described me to be. It's somewhat descriptive of me, but I am fun-loving, crazy, sanguine, and quite gracious too la... Thank God for God in me, cos if not, I would be totally and utterly BLACK. Thank God for His Fruit of the Spirit in me that makes me a balanced person.

I completed my 5.8km JPMorgan Run yesterday without walking. I jogged real slow, but hey, I didn't walk ok... That was a personal challenge, especially considering the fact I hardly trained, so thank God for the mind He gave me: it's ALL in the mind. When it was really tough-going, and I really felt like walking, I told myself that my body is actually not very tired; it's my mind that is, so I cannot give in to the tiredness in the mind. Since I started running, I am always reminded of this: One can run slowly, even walk - it's alright, but one must finish the race no matter what. God said we are called to run this race of faith as well. We must be finishers of the race - no matter in what manner.

Each run I complete is a personal feat for me. Thank You Lord for being with me through my runs and always encouraging me to press on. Thank You for the salvations I hear in the most improbable people (share that the next time).

"Hua Yu" COOL!

Well, Singapore has been promoting the use of the Chinese language, the slogan is "Hua Yu COOL". I gotta adopt that now. Well, as I ALWAYS said, my chinese is really not that bad. I can somewhat read at least half the chinese words, and I can speak. Of course, it is a different ball game altogether when your clients are Taiwanese. The Lord has "promoted" me recently to take over one of the Taiwan portfolio. I am grateful, but am filled with apprehensions at the same time. It is no joke having to deal with savvy, sophisticated clientele.
In the course of God unfolding His plans for me, there are MANY MANY times I want to throw in the towel and take the easier route. Doubts, disappointments, apprehensions, uncertainties are a bunch of discouragements. I remember Julian asked me once, whether I really wanna do this (succeeding in the world as salt and light and example that christians are heads, not tails). He asked if I want to be "not normal", not mediocre. I remember answering him: I have NO choice, I cannot be mediocre. Be it my upbringing, my family background, my exposure, how I am wired up - yea, blame it on all these reasons - I guess I am made for BIG things. I believe the Lord has already inscribed my life journey in the palm of His Hand even before I was formed in my mother's womb. This fact is humbling, for who am I that He should create me for greatness.
Throughout the past 4 months, I often remind myself of what one of my dear brothers shared with me as my "birthday gift": Humility. Success should not bring about pride, but it should bring about even more humility. I don't know how I am where I am today - it's ONLY by His Grace. For the 1st time, after reading a book, I realized why Peter told Jesus, "Away from me, Lord, for I am a sinful man." He said this after he caught many fish when Jesus asked them to let down their nets. Story is that they have been fishing the entire night but did not catch any fish (even as professional fishermen). When they did what Jesus asked them to, they harvested aplenty. Success humbled him. I guess that is what you call character.
I realized that in life, it is very important for us to ALWAYS get ourselves in perspectives. So many things happen in our lives that can throw us in a frenzy. It is only when we step back from all the entanglement and once again return to our right perspectives, to focus on what's truly important, that we maintain our sanity,
I thank God He is in me, cos He always points me to Him, my True North.
I asked Him one night, "Lord, how is it possible I still love You so much and find You so novel and fresh after 10 years? I don't know how I am going to sustain through another 50 years." And I looked into the bible and there He was: "Even to your old age and gray hairs, I am he, I am he who will sustain you; I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you." Once again, I met Him....
I will CHOOSE to press on.... Remind me when I feel like giving up...

Intercession

Easter is over. Our services were great, not because our programme was great; in fact our programme was normal. But God was present. Both Sat and Sun service... His Love was Overwhelming. It was so encouraging to see how HIs people served Him tiredlessly, despite physical constraints like age. (winks at the Dinos)


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I was extremely blessed by this Easter. On Sat night, something unusual happened to me. I was rather tired (or so I thought), so I laid down to sleep. But tears started rolling down by face onto my pillow. They didn't stop, and I was rather surprised, as I could not understand why I was crying. So I started praying, and the more I prayed, the more I teared. I then started asking God what He wanted me to pray about, cos I gathered after a while that perhaps it was an encounter with Him. It was burdensome to intercede... for those who have yet to know Him, for our ministers who were tired, for my family, etc etc. It was a heart-wrenching time. This went on for about 45min... I was real tired by then, but I couldn't bring myself to sleep without asking Him. Finally, I think He "permitted". I was excited... Excited to see how these prayers will come to pass, excited because I interceded according to His will, His leading. It was memorable and precious, as it was a time between my Lord and I. I was also overwhelmed by ALL that He has given me. All that I have - my talents, giftings, abilities, personality, character, everything... is what He designed. Thank You for this honour to be Yours.
Easter was a time I thought of His love for me... It was overwhelming. After 10 years, He still amazes me. Thank you for this EverNew Love... Thank You for this special Relationship.

During this business trip, I wanna continue to declare fruitfulness in my work, for He is a God of Fruitfulness and success!

Thank You in advance...

Pensive...

I stayed home today cos' I am having such a bad sore throat. GOSH, it's torturous man. I just got a camera. It's so fun. Check out some of the shots I took... Life has been rather monotonous. Other than those times I spend with my CG people serving, laughing and having fun, life has been rather monotonous. But quite a few things have been on my mind... maybe I think too much. My ipod could not be updated, frustrated me... had to do stuffs to get it up and about again... technology, gadgets... they get on your nerves when they don't work. That's why they are not in my favourites' list. But I must say, they are useful and do make like mroe colourful. For those of you out there who do not know, WAM has quite a few eligible bachelors... They are people who have wonderful character AND personalities, gifted, talented, AND love God. Tho' they are better as brothers to me, they are all great and available people... I decided to undertake this important job as the WAM spokesperson.

Church life is vibrant, exciting and fun. Serving God is great fun and very satisfying indeed. For anyone who has not experienced the joy of serving the Lord, you're missing out on a great deal.



Guess I'll just leave it for now... I'll be expecting emails... ;)

P.S: Sorry, no pics yet, dunno why couldn't download. Next time, dudes...

A dear friend..

Today I think of a very very dear friend... someone I am very close with, someone who is so dear to me... but he is not here, away in Manila... Most of you who read my blog will probably know who he is. Anyway, there's a picture of him here.
It still feels weird not to have him here... We've been friends for the longest time. All the times we've been through together, I thank God He preserves our friendship. HL is someone who will listen to me grouse, whine, and take a lot of my nonsense... Of course, I have my fair share of taking his too...
This evening, I thought of him, and still feel weird. For example, I suddenly contracted the Jay-Chou-disease. When he was around, I'd just pick up the phone and exclaim to him all about Jay Chou. And he will just entertain me and listen and maybe even discuss with me, since he is more into Chinese songs than me. Perhaps we can then discuss about Initial D and how cool Jay Chou is in that show... Alas, he is faraway...
And HL, if you are reading this, and you think you have been forgotten, trust me, you have not. You are dearly missed by us, (and if u dun believe, u can always take a sample of "the trinity" and be proven wrong). I'm always cheering you on, so do us proud there yea?

Ok, since HL is not here for me to grouse to, you - my blog audience - will be the ones honoured to read my ranting and grousing. thanks for being a GREAT audience.

Till we meet again, soon.